ntu soci 3rd year x))
17th april 1987
5'7 tall
I don't tolerate incongruity
Music, Dancefloor makes me come alive
A world of self denial i live
embodiment of ice
YDesires.
canon ixus 970is or
fujifilm f100d
clothes
maintain GPA of 4.0 above
happiness
pretty skin
all the while i'm living life for other people i've never had a say in my own life
even my mother calls me useless i guess so i'm born to be a failure
what i want, what i need, what i like i'll never do it, get it and nobody will ever know it
but for now, i just want a sleep i'm so tired
&loved you so.
24.2.08
recess week is called recess because... it is short you've to do so many things in so little time (imagine packing your stuff, walking down to the canteen, queuing for food, getting a seat, buying a drink, going to toilet, chatting & walking back to class)
things i've to do **policy analysis project (i still don't know what policy to choose) **social movement essay (i'm doing my "favourite" country China) **food diary + research (i've not start recording my 14day diet even) **book review for family (which i've yet to find any book to start reading) and there's **social movement test and **statistics test next week :( :(
a little random but i'm praying hard my hair will grow fastest (Referring to my fringe especially) all the cystic acnes and blemish scars to go away *SHOO*
despite my immense hatred for stingy and thickskin people i think i'm just soooo fated to be stuck with "un-generous" friends
and this is probably a time i'll be missing people like emily especially yar she's rich but rich people can be stingy too but she's not and i never had to even worry about any $$ related stuff with such people as your friends seriously giving them treats you are all willing to do so because they are always the last on the list to take advantage of your wealth
i'm not stingy, people who know me will know i'm rather generous i can even say BUT there are so many things that people do that gets on my nerves **forever asking for treats/gifts from others but won't even fork out a decent sum for others' treats/gifts **gup-ping other people's food everytime (trying to save on their side) **complaining about being poor and indulging in excessive/extensive buys **borrowing $ and take ages to return or claim to have "forgotten" about it **asking friends to pay up balance of meals or stuff they buy... and totally forgot they have to return back the $ **trying to delay payment as long as possible when they have the access and ability to do it immediately **always asking people to do this do that for you, ask people to photocopy the book for you.....and then you keep kbkb about how expensive it is and the person should have done it somewhere else (why can't you do it yourself!)
grrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.....
why can't people be more sensitive to others? even though its just minor minor stuff like..please think about how would you feel if people do this to you?
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angela zhang's in Spore i really wish to see her in person just for a second :)
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i'm really stressed up with everything i wonder what can boost your happiness level up? sigh... i think i'm having split personalities
not just this incident but after all these while you will realize being or trying to be nice to someone no one is going to thank you for that instead when something go wrong you will always be the one at fault
i've got 101 things to do i've got 101 things in my head plus my damn eye is so itchy, red and swollen i'm tired
&loved you so.
16.2.08
although i'm 2 days late...
HAPPY VALENTINES' DAY :)
as usual very busy with school next week need to hand up an essay proposal and test and the recess week will not be a holiday because you've to study for tests, pia essays, catch up all the accumulated readings
my phone is having pms again the auto-delete and auto-off syndrome is back in a dilemma whether to change phone -black/violet U700 pretty yet the fingerprint-mark(s) is :S -G800 is a fantastic phone but i rather contribute part of the money to a new camera -6500slide is off because suddenly i think its quite ugly -SE 810i is nice but...i scared i can't get used to the puny buttons with my enormous hands not to mention its tempting to get the latest phone with great features but yet i think i'll want to buy Fujifilm f50d instead of an expensive phone that's of 5megapixel
my ntu friends are already asking what i want for my 21st but i seriously don't know because a phone, camera, watch i want is just way too expensive
yesterday went to pray @ loyang dua pek gong there i bought a fortune bucket hoping that placing money till its brim will bring me more money this year
then while my mummy and i were at whitesands i saw a pretty titus watch and i thought i could tell her this shall be my 21st present but i realize the price is even prettier more than half a thousand -_- and mummy says its ugly, like so not feminine because its quite big oh well i shall continue to look out for a nice and not so expensive watch
i've a bad eye infection again :(
if you don't like pepper crab and like chilli crab because of the yummy gravy there was one instance..someone didn't remember.. what does it symbolize?
&loved you so.
10.2.08
4 days have passed in a swift tomorrow's back to school again not to mention i've like how many dozen of shit undone
and i've not had a proper photo taken with my parents just only my mum
all my relatives say i look just like her when she's young and they'll always call me my mum's name and vice versa hmm.perhaps 60% resemblance she's pretty i'm not perfect skin (she said she never had a single pimple till her wedding day when 2 zits popped out, in the past skincare wasn't the norm), i've horrible skin now. worst of all this time round...stress, hormonal imbalance gorgeous silky hair, mine's like hay
two lovely kids i heart i really love babies and kids! carrying and playing with them :) they are my.....hmm i don't know what to call them they are my cousin's children
yeah and stingy people (who are married) are forever MIA during cny smart right? i really really can't stand stingy shit
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i must learn to be stronger i must learn the art of happiness when someone's happy or in blissful love they have flawless and glowing complexion
i've more than 100 bumps on my face, rough, dull, oily, red patches i really am worse than dung
&loved you so.
9.2.08
世界上最艰难的事不是流泪 而是强忍着泪水 挂着一副嘻皮笑脸，强言欢笑 who say a 21-year-old girl has little experience? i think i've had more than anyone will ever had the entire life being humiliated in both private and public being yelled at using the most crude, vulgar and awful words being called names that you'll only use on beast, not just animals feel yourself even more lowly than a prostitute
only children loves cny they like their new clothes, cny goodies, angbaos, holiday (break from school)
i don't like cny because your school work just start accumulating like no one's business how are you supposed to go visiting in peace? when you've more than 10 readings and 2 essay due when school reopen
i'm getting tonnes of breakouts this month god knows why stress perhaps not those big red zits but those small tiny bumps and they count in zillions
hai one should not sigh during cny but there's just.....101 things going on my mind
HAPPY NEW YEAR everyone
and though i'm passed the age of loving cny and ought to be thinking of serious stuff, about future i also wish there'll be some time to grant me a little princess thought dreaming of a lovely valentine's dreaming of my horse or pumpkin carriage dreaming of my little princess dress and glass heels having my prince charming coming on a pretty horse having the perfect dinner by the pool having the perfect dance at the ballroom
aww what a Cinderella story i've in my mind lingering the whole day especially when i was finding Disney online games for my little cousin to play this noon i was hoping that what was thought to be a fantasy can be reality
flowers are pretty definitely, who doesn't love flowers? but they are impractical and expensive in real life if only i can have a garden of lavender, roses, forget-me-not, lilies to myself and what's priceless in fairy tales isn't those glitz and glam but the smile on the prince/princess that seem so true and timeless
&loved you so.
6.2.08
less than a day to cny should clear all my ramblings (which equates bad stuff) now and get on with my mousey year
firstly.. HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY FISHY HO! :) :) great to see u again after so long... grown prettier yet again! thanks for your birthday treat, food was fantastic, etc etc hope you enjoyed yourself yesterday and was happy! :) hope you like the gloss i got for you too apply le will have ultra hot, sexy, mesmerizing lips OKAY!
thankyou acey for your "supposedly-nicer-version-of-the-Warehouse-red-clutch-look-alike" wallet thankyou for everything and everything you'll always be one of my favourite bestie, together we'll be the frying pan sisters :)
on a side note... ya i was rather moody yesterday alot alot of things going on i really swear i was really excited about fishy's party like by far i really hate parties, and probably turned down 101 of them she's like one of the few i really promised my attendance on my way there i was still quite happy like having this thought "yeah i going to wish fishy happy birthday later" that kinda thing i guess when the feeling comes, it really comes (its okay nobody understands what i talking about, because i don't want anyone to know, since its like my bestie birthday and i'm supposed to be happy) and i'm truly happy for her like serious i think the entire night my only consolation is seeing her happy, and so many of her friends came and gave her well wishes, and how happy her family is :) but going home that time i was really pissed with some inconsiderate/indecisive people and the journey home made me nausea skipped the lift because an unknown man went in who knows i ended up taking the lift with my ahneh neighbours i almost puke out sheesh but upon receiving fishy and acey's sms i felt better
basically no one was in the mood for lessons yesterday yar was feeling soooo tired during all lectures zzb and gb totally sounded like lullaby -_- had my pp quiz too..questions was quite badly done! oh well. you can't expect much from zzb ahah then prof teo was soooo nice she bought butter egg rolls for the class which was so delicious :) daryl wanted to ask her where she got them, but to our disappointment, it was from m'sia! then after lect she went jp to get budget roses which cost only 6.50 (DAMN CHEAP CAN) for her friend's belated birthday.....and the stupid shop don't provide any wrapping service.toots.
nonetheless hope they'll have a great time at bernice's house on sunday i can't make it because i've to go aunt's house for visiting
dear hope you won't give up on your studies because i'm not giving up on you so sorry i couldn't be of much help i know juggling between work-studies is going be so tough for you seeing you having like so little sleep everyday pains me we hardly have time to meet up to do what our dating couples do but still i just to know i'm still right here for you i may not be the perfect girlfriend in your eyes but i know i did my 200% for you since day 1 and i'm still trying my best to improve every single second for you and that all i'm putting in only goes to show you matter not just alot to me but you meant everything to me i love you
2008 resolution number one thou shan share birthday presents with anyone anymore
insincerity is the word
&loved you so.
2.2.08
cny's approaching we must all learn to be happy gone with the old, here comes the new hopefully, this is going to be a smooth-sailing year
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lessons have been mind-draining ever since school reopen just did my social movement presentation (its good to be the 1st group, since coming on there'll be more assignments) then there's our "changing family" course and we see polar views on issues of heterosexual vs homosexual families surprising enough, i was one of the extreme leftists regarding this (that doesn't mean i will do it, i'm still the conservative type, its just the thinking and how receptive you are towards others) last tutorial we even had a debate on the deference for repeal of penal code 377a and i realize there are actually naive people studying in the same school with me or actually...looking at the debate last year some prominent figures have been giving... you can just -sigh- and wonder what has education taught you?
no.1 gay families won't give rise to ABNORMAL children! go watch some documentaries, get those silly thoughts off your head no.2 the criminalization is directed at gays, not homosexuals do you get the idea now why people are for repealing?? get your definitions right before you tell people you know what's equality
i'm looking forward to seeing your letter on the discussion board
sparklethots
