ntu soci 3rd year x))
17th april 1987
5'7 tall
I don't tolerate incongruity
Music, Dancefloor makes me come alive
A world of self denial i live
embodiment of ice
YDesires.
canon ixus 970is or
fujifilm f100d
clothes
maintain GPA of 4.0 above
happiness
pretty skin
today went back for chi s paper.. there's another session tomorrow.. seriously i don't listen to his lesson..*opps* really there's not much to be learnt.. i'll only refer to the photocopied notes eventually.. but i'm going still for the sake of going..
heavy heavy downpour this morning.. how i wish..this rain could wash away all my troubles...
time and the amount of work we have to study is really not in the correct proportion. sometimes i wonder who invented this kind of edu system. yes we learn knowledge..build character....... * LIKE REAL* -- you should see how people out there are still so childish..selfish..hypocrital..blahblahblah. are we even to required to use all that we've studied in this *counts...1,2,3....15!!! years of sch...? seriously...a big fat NO. maybe for some..a mere 5% of the population will be able to apply these "skills" we've learnt.
sigh.
and why are we subjecting our poor body to such a pressure cooker of the society.....? submissive? following the majority?? yes eventually many of us will be out there working..earning money.. but... we'll die one day.. and all these stress we've built up in the teenage days will hasten our death!! i'm being a little cranky here. pessimistic as well.
arrrrrrrgh. so much for the stress.
i'm afraid to fail once again. esp to face HER again. pls spare me the agony of seeing that arrogant "braggrat"
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but i thank the creator of hi fi set blast away my troubles for the time being.
&loved you so.
26.8.05
yes i edited e prev post..delete tt part which caused "controversy".. oh well..it was juz a random thought thatt came across when i was watching a tv serial! so yar.. i've removed it! prevent anyone frm further asking me m i talking about them!
i'm still sick.. e flu bug is getting worse.. gess i shouldn't go ms ng's hse in case i pass any germs to anyone.. n spare them e agony of hearing those disgusting phlegm-causing noise. sianx. y must i get sick at sucha point of time...
ystd superstar.. candy wasn't there..prob singing at qi yue ge tai..=x oh..n xinhui rocks!! *yeah pammmmmieee* she's like so pretty ystd with that casual look. n her vocal was still as mesmerising.... n among all e song e others sang..she still shine as e best!! following by chanel ^^, macy was as pretty as ever! my top 3 faves were fantastic :) my perception on *erhem* hasn't changed yet...
so xian mu kw went to e live recording.. so xian mu yh is going to e sept30th concert..
next week have to go back for 3 days... darn. eat up my study wk.. damn.
n y must we study deserts and not coasts. much more interesting..and definitely easier.
can't wait for prelims to end... at least can find time to go out w ppl i haven't gone out with for ages.. june,kw,yh,ch,... of coz..a little more time to spend with dear.. know i've neglected quite a bit recently.. v hard to find time n meet him also.. *hugs* never forget u ok =)
i want e shell pendant necklace i saw that day at tm! i want a green top. i want a pair of espadrilles/wedges/heels & a pair of flats. definitely i'm enticed by e pretty bvlgari red shades.
dearr.. if fail le nvm k.. there'll always be a next time u can do better. i believe u can do it! to me.. i noe u've potential to b a great marksman. i'll always be here for u!
&loved you so.
24.8.05
current status: down wif a v v v bad sore throat + flu dis has resulted in puffy eyes n droopppy eyelids. =(
dear's at live firing area now i gess.. hope everything's going well for him!! miss him so much :( can't wait to see him... *pray pray pray for wkends to come..*
juz read fu's blog. den i suddenly rmb smthing i wanna ask... wad's dis sudden craze for LV products NOW?!?!! yucks.. not e brand.. but e ppl hu wears them. dunno hu started dis trend.. its like outta 10 on e street...u can spot 3 LV Wallet n 1 LV bag. n i dun mean those working class ppl.. but students. ranging frm neighbourhood sec sch to poly to jc ppl. chi n malays. man. u shud juz see those ppl...LV on them juz looks like LS. (lao sai) realli..damn bengs n lians lar. n dunno wad's w guys carrying LV wallets n bags too.... there r so mani other brands u can go for ....?! hmmmmmmm. again...i was wondering r those real or fake stuff. a certain race of ppl ain tt rich...*no offence*..so yar..tt's wad i tried inferring frm.
u juz dunno how much i dread sch.. how much i dread talkative n loud ppl.. ppl wif no poise at all.. ain civilised ppl to me at all. not to even say pretty or handsome. so no one is beautiful to me if tt person talks loudly..rudely.."piercingly"
some ppl r so fake. u dunno when dey mite backstabbed u. den a few moments later dey love u like mad. its such an irony how ppl change. in fact..its disgusting to know such ppl exist. wow...n its soooooo common now to find such ppl.
&loved you so.
22.8.05
thx to yh!! she made my day!! now i can listen to sinhuey everiday..... laalaa...
sheshhh. busy busy wk... luckily 4 tests down to 2. but SAD. i've to go back sch next wk for gp-830 s paper-afternoon..dunno mon or tues......or both... realli. i wana stay at home. i dun tink by going those lessons can help much.
i miss him loads. so much so much.. its bad.. i'm looking forward to sat.. like dunno when i'll see him again till end of prelims.. den he'll b off to brunei for training in oct... *grrrrr* he sent me a super cute photo of himself in army uni today. super cute!
i'm quite a brand-conscious person. not realli for e brand but quality. i onli buy clothes frm topshop, bebe, warehouse, fcuk..tees frm funkyurban.. a few exceptions if i happen to chance upon any nice ones.... but realise quality from topshop ain v gd... v easily worn out.
hmmm. i din noe by not toking to someone for a period of time... so much things can happen.. abit guilty..
n i shud b back to my hw..... so much to do for today =(
anw..happy bday zixin...
&loved you so.
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&loved you so.
e ideal champions
&loved you so.
i like this pic..coz sinhuey is sooo beautiful here :) swt smile...!
&loved you so.
19.8.05
dearr made a mini flash for me!! on us.. i tink its v v v nice!! super duper ultra swt of him :) juz touched tt he even bother to make e effort doing dis... *hugs* recently we keep playing silly games.. but still i'm happy.n hope u'r too!! bear w it another 2 more mths.... den i'll compensate all e time i've neglected u coz of all dis stupid exams i'm going thru..... u'r always on my mind no matter whr i go..wad i do.. once again..thx for e flash. i luv it loads.. ^^,
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napfa is over!! :D *ok..i've juz ignore e 2.4 on mon* coz i'm sure to fail.. i juz hate running to e core!! i'm aiming for juz 1730. but i dun mind failing either..
pam : u can run nor!! lolx.. 15mins wor!! since i'm a snoopy..i'm supposed to b at ur back always..haha..
sch's officially left 1 more wk...... is tt gd or bad. seriously i dunno... oh well.. no negative remarks at e moment..coz i'm happy rite now looking at e flash....
oh..n there's a little dedication session here....
chuhui : heyhey..like so so long nv see u..talk to u...hear u blahblahblah bout ur huever ou xiang or wad.. n glad to noe u'r so studying hard !! muz jiayou kk..... after exams its meeting time :) i've nv forgot u or wad k..is u! =x
yuhui : for goodness sake..tink u haf a curse or smthing...rmb e ppl being booted out r all tt u supported lar!! junyang..weicong..blah blah.. n same goes to u too...muz study hard.. meet after exams !!
kw : u'r e meanest!! u'r so so on time buying presents for others...but me leh..?? *sobx* disappointed lar....... n u've forgotten me lerrrrr......
n yes...superstar results... yes i noe..traumatizing for many out there.. yes i'm a junyang supporter.. i tink he's a gd singer..nice vocal n all.. definitely he's like e best of e males.. but i juz can't stand ppl saying mean things bout wei lian bout his victory.. yes he's blind..everione noes tt... pls pls pls..dun take tt as a form of swearing.. e worst thing one can eva do is scold e person using names frm his phy disabilities.. we can still support junyang.. like..in future he cuts an album we buy dem!! support him!! *since to me..the competition has lost its meaning duno when...* like e highest always get booted out.. only e so called prettier n handsome ones get more fans..n is a MUST to win.. like... -_- i mean its so obvious seeing e judges being bias too... the way they speak n gif comments esp.. n gradings.. like dey like ____ no matter wad mistake ____ make like isn't even existant when u look at e scores dey give... imagine it was e other person who made tt mistake..n e judges will pila pala say so much mean skeptical comments.
a v v v v typical example : although to me xinhui is like prettier den kelly.. but well tt's not impt.. wad i wan to say is.. many ppl tinks kelly is prettier.. ok...diff preference... but..wad's e prob w e judges?! y do we need judges u tell me.. to gif a fair "verdict" right? n y do i see such varying comments like... kelly u'r pretty...n sinhuey is a 42plasma tv. i mean tt's ultimately mean... ESP TO SAY IT ON TV. tt sounds so so so schoolgirl man. onli childish ppl give irresponsible remarks. like commenting hu n hu's performance suck (when it doesn't....) coz to dem tt person isn't gd looking...tt's y suc....... ----------- huh?!?!?! ok.. n dey haf to pick on everi single thing sinhuey wears. ok i admit tt her clothings mostly dun realli match her songs... but dey ain bad to a horrible extent either... there r mani ways to say it nicer rite!! like nobody realli toks bout her plus points...n keep emphasizing on her flaws..
bias.
yes somemore its damn obvious sinhuey sang v v v well for e past few wks.. her scores show it too.. in fact i noticed her when e 24 finalists were out...tink she's kinda swt esp her smile..n eyes.. den her "revolution'' made me her ardent fan... her "wen rou de ye" made her my goddess.. her "xin tong" made my heart ache n cry.. her "you are so beautiful" realli prove to all her singing flair.. lastly her "yi shi de mei hao"..my fave song.. n she sang it so well...tt i cried... definitely i'm v v v sad tt she's out alr.. but she's still my superstar :) i'm waiting for her album *hopefully there is* i realli wish i cud meet her some day. can see tt she's a nice person to hang out with.. someone true..cheerful..swt =)
den its pretty obvious tt KELLY will win lar. bet e judges will create a big rift btw their scores.. jy fans voting for kelly so as not to let weilian b 1st.. expected. since tt she's a apple of all judges eyes n dis competition is juz a mere showcase of looks... its quite saddening to know tt how we try to advocate how looks isn't all tt matter.. n here its so obvious tt it is reali e factor to success....
enough said. aniway i wun bitch bout kelly either.. i will nv do tt. i do admit she's quite gd in singing too. but i believe when ppl r improving on their skills she's now seemingly deproving from her "mei li ben nu ren"..complacency?? n i can't accept e fact e singles dey r releasing on 21st..she's singing "yi shi de mei hao"...... damn...i'm not trying to b mean here.. but she realli sang quite badly for tt song. y not use her "hui jia"..its well sang as compare w ......erhem..spoiling my fave song..? coz i'm super familiarize w tt song...listen to it dozen n one times..
imagine hafing to scream till ur voice breaks, ur lungs burst, ur tears flow...
yet nth could eliminate the stressbugs within u.. cloggin up ur nerves.. biting hard on them causing pain..
&loved you so.
13.8.05
ystd marked e 14th mth together w u.. definitely still going on smooth n strong out there! even thou we'r meeting lesser nowadays.. u nv fail to make my smile everithing i see u.. n thx for being so swt.. fancy baking a cake in e middle of 2am 3am.. sacrificing ur slp when u'r alr so so tired.. juz coming to meet me in e earli morning to pass me e cake specially :) thx my dear.. i appreciate all tt u've done for me *hugs*
n gosh.. he mms me his foto of his injured hand ystd.. all bandaged up. n wad m i doing at home?? slping.. poor him! as usual i ain w him wheneva he's injured/hurt.. pretty bad dis time.. raddish-liked fingers.. heard dey bled alot too.. *piang piang piang* i'm worried..yet there's nth i can do..
dis 2 wks r exceptionally bz for me.. tonnes of hw n tests.. whr do i even haf e time to revise? -_- n there's still e stupid napfa test i dread so much.
anw i'm so so elated w e results of superstars. its now left w e 4 elites. i juz dun uds y ppl onli care bout looks.. wei lian can sing..maybe not suitable for fast rhythmic songs..but he definitely dun sux.. xinhui is not as thin as kelly..but she isn't ugly.. to me she's pretty.. in a way she noes how to charm others w her smile to cover up her flaws.. definitely w her oh-s0-powerful vocal.. lookin matured isn't wad she wished for either...i mean better den *beep* hu onli appeals to UNDERAGED n superficial teens. being simple-lookin isn't wad junyang cud ask for too..who doesn't wana look hunky? but there's nth wrong w being e guy-next-door. n he can sing e best! *ppl hu feel sore tt derrick was out shud juz shut their mouth n stop criticising junyang..if u r such an expert..y ppl nv invite u to b one of e judges then? so stop acting miss-u-know-it-all..its juz nth much plain irritance.*
xinhui u go gal :) no matter whether u'll b in or out.. to me u'r still e best singer in dis whole comp.. which i supported right frm e start =)
so much for now..
&loved you so.
6.8.05
finally e day is tmr. i've waited so long. . . . . . to see dear!!
stupid sch. if not i wun b neglecting him. dui bu qi** wo ai ni**
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n i'm so glad sinhuey got in. she's fantastic. hope she gets to e finals! luv her vocals. n junyang! i noe both of dem can make it!! :) coz dey'r e best.
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anw last wk i watched /the island\. pretty nice in a way.. but e ending was -_- can u imagine releasing e clones running into thousands running free in e streets..n one day u bump into them u still tink that e saying "there r 7 ppl hu look like u in dis universe..regardless of race/nationality".?
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kw's sick. poor girl. hope u'r getting better!! n enjoy dis long long wkend of urs. arrgh! i juz haf a damn mock gp exam on mon. if not i dun even need to step in tt sch.
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sch's bad. v bad. n i noe i wun miss anithing/anione tt associates w it. juz sick n tired. ppl may b gd in studies. but their way of tinking,handling things,acting is a merely of a pri6 kid. i noe i ain tt gd either. but i noe i dun make e mistake dey r doing.
&loved you so.
3.8.05
juz finished browsing thru some blogs.. like duno since when i've done tt other than some frequent ones..
anw sch's normal today.. rainy day..cooling!n tt's gd!! :) e ntu talk was erhem..not bad. to me tt is..coz i was pretty interested in e content e 1st speaker was saying. but well. dey onli show us e fun part which onli stands onli 0.01% of e syllabus.
saw a DHS guy n VJC gal PDA-ing on bus 12. shud haf inform mr kiw! lolx.
today geog test was bad as usual. me n wenyuan were like stoning behind. when ky june n jy were scribbling thousands of words!
something juz struck me..frm a part of someone's blog.. which trigger dis thot of mine.. : ppl nowadays dunno how to express demselves properly. either dey OVER-do it.. or dey DUN express demselves.
"人心难测"--ren2 xin1 nan2 ce4 as wad i always say.. dey say diff things in front of diff ppl.. n can one side swear words at someone..another side laff n joke along w tt person.. which is real? dey often tink up excuse to cover up their hypocracy. or rather dey nv spare a thot for others.
someone tok w/o much thots b4 dey speak. in a nice way u call dem straightforward. in a bad way dey r juz plain rude n selfish.
n since ppl nowadays r all liddat.. u dunno when dey r true to u..when dey ain.. n u realli haf minimal faith in ppl ard u like frenz.. coz u dunno when dey mite turn their back against u.. tok bad bout u..swear at u..
mere thot of it freaks me out. y humans r made dis way. EVIL!
its frightening to live in a world whr there's no one u can trust (besides papa mama n dear).. everione ard u is fake.. n i dunno by remaining silence issit a bad thing.
tt's life.
anw dearr.. outfield again..know recently u v bz..tired.. but i'm here giving u moral support always.. missing u.. hugs*i luv u.
i'm dying to lay my hands on those funkyurban,emperor new clothes n teenage millionaire tees.
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even 1 more min breathing in air from tt jc can shorten my lifespan. too late for regrets. but it'll totalli outta my memory completely straight after 17th nov. no more -toot- no more -toot- no more -toot-. too many to list. *yells out loud* a day there = a wk in hell. no one knows wad's dreading me,irritating me. i wun tell ppl either. its far too offending. anw.doesn't mean tt i'm sooooo quiet in sch ppl can all pee on my head. *argh* totalli SICK.
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