ntu soci 3rd year x))
17th april 1987
5'7 tall
I don't tolerate incongruity
Music, Dancefloor makes me come alive
A world of self denial i live
embodiment of ice
YDesires.
canon ixus 970is or
fujifilm f100d
clothes
maintain GPA of 4.0 above
happiness
pretty skin
exams made me lose 4 job opportunities that can earn me big $. sigh.sometimes i wish i don't have to study, then i can work and lighten my father's load. no. more like..why is tertiary education so bloody expensive??? the stupid miscellaneous fees..damn..i only spend around 15hours in school...other than flushing the school's toiletbowl water, using your tap to wash my hands, using your desks/chairs..nothing else!! you chose to blast your aircon at min degree everywhere for almost 24/7..you expect us to pay for everything. -_- and the professors! they are not like jc or secondary school teachers, who need to blabber all their knowledge and waste energy on students..they just say their views in their 2 hour lecture..whether you are there anot its not their business..some are really of substandard..yet they fetch a much higher pay than my secondary/jc teachers.unfair.really.when those teachers are equally good! i am not whining about the standard of the professors. i don't deny some are really damn good.. i just SIGH at the horrible cost we have to pay for that pathetic piece of certificate which do not really guarantee you anything.
now i think of how late my father always return home in the middle of the night.. and gone to work before i wake up (pardon..i always wake up very early).. and i know physically its unbearing for him already.. yet there's nothing i can do..
i was shit disappointed being turn down for these jobs not because i'm not up to it. but i can't commit the full period. i may seem that i buy alot stuff..but i never overspend what i've put aside for shopping/savings.. the ratio is there and i make it a point to put aside a larger portion for savings. treats for parents and dear.
you pick up a note.can you measure its thickness?its weight???? YET this note can kill you.
how can one say money is not important? i can't wait for university to end. i need to work. i don't want my parents to work anymore. i want them to eat, watch tv, go out and have fun.
by the way..thanks dear for those BBQ pork and pork floss!! *yummy* praying hard for the reply you're waiting eagerly for. don't worry!! will succeed =) i love you!.......
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i miss my dear so much.. he moved into his new house yesterday.. quite a nice place..but super inconvenient if you do not have your own car.. so ulu~!
i must get him a beautiful cactus, a nice table lamp, a nice frame of our photo! wait till i get my allowance. hmrph.i just treated him to a pampering haircut @ chapter 2. in addition got him the sebastian clay!! every guy's dream to own one. HAHA but he feels its too expensive..so i got him as a gift instead =) he likes it!! that makes me very happy! wanted to get him tops from topman but i was broke after that pockethole-burning treat.
tomorrow is his job interview..really hopes he gets this one.. he promised to buy me something (cheapcheap ones) with every pay! so that i can keep track of the number or months he worked. hah..i wanted shoes..but he very "pan-tan" say later i run away. so we settled on earrings!!
maybe if i'm lucky.. i can get my LIBERATION bag very soon!! ( i saw this leather bag @ tangs vivo..i love it at 1st sight..but was a jaw-dropping $300 cold hard cash for that small bag----- disappointed)
this stupid boy of mine injured himself this morning during soccer AGAIN. sigh. i'm forbidding him to play from today onwards.
i love you dear! all the best tomorrow!
&loved you so.
nothing much to update recently.. other than rushing through assignments..attending lectures.. will be rotting on my sofa watching tv :) channel 8 9pm show is damn nice! this show makes me dislike fiona xie, which i used to find her babelicious.now..NOPE. damn turned off by her voice. because she's so mean to yvonne lim! hated her evil ways to seduce and come between pierre png n yvonne....*GRRR!* pierre png is truely a rising star in channel 8! :)
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i know many people are busy with school. but i just hate the fact that i'm treated like a piece of transparent glass by some individuals. WELL.i guess its kind of expected uh? even in different schools, i don't mind lesser meet ups..but occasionally sms or msn won't kill. fwahh. i've long got over this disappointment. ever since primary 6..having your bestest friends FLOATING away is never a new thing to me. people nowadays just care about how much fun they can have with their friends.who gives a hoot about friendship man.
and seriously i won't be shortening my lifespan dwindling about these people like how i did in the past. i will spend my precious time doing things that make me happy. SHOP.TV.EAT.
as you grow older, the need for friends diminish. because you know this phrase "friends forever" is just a kiddy term to trick naive children out there. what matter is.. *your own future *money *career *family *and someone you going to spend the rest of your life with..the love of your life.
i think studying sociology makes me a rather cold person. because by using this "sociological perspective" to view the world you're in.. you get so disheartened by life.. because you get to see the real truth.. and understand what you see is not what it really is.
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using a chanel foundation does not make you more vain than someone using a silkgirl foundation. you are still using foundation. (i chance this theory upon one of my school mate's blog) its one's preference.. you chose a silkgirl foundation when you care about how much money you've saved and can spend of something else.. you chose a chanel foundation when you care about how much the product will damage your complexion..you believe in quality.
i can say i used almost 80% of the cosmetic brands available in Singapore. chanel, clinique, shiseido, mac, estee lauder, ettusai, anna sui, maybelline, ZA, loreal. i used to believe chanel and clinique gives me the best coverage for foundation, and i refused to opt for any cheaper alternatives. recently the limited edition ZA 2way foundation caught my attention..$29.90 for 2 refills. i realised..the ZA foundation, which is like 1/4 the price of a chanel foundation, is no way inferior than it. but i'm not saying all cheap stuffs are good. there are bad ones.
take for example a mac eye shadow palette and fasio/canmake eye shadow duo colour. the latter one can't even stay on your lids even when you apply a large amount..the colour applied is not the colour you see in the casing..and the powder sticks onto your fingers and clothes when you accidentally touched it. a good one stays there..colour is perfectly gorgeous, and you only need a meager amount.
i'm not a make up guru.. but i know what products are worth splurging what are not really that neccessary.
foundation..cheap ones like ZA and loreal are very good even compared with chanel. blusher..you can get a good one from loreal @ less than $15..if you fancy a better one will be MAC. eye liner..i only recommend clinique..highly resistant to everything. mascara..if you want a vavavroom effect, opt for DIOR..good for volumising. if not loreal's sky line curve is very good for lengthening. eyeshadow..everything is fine just stay away from CANMAKE. lipstick..i like kaneige.quite lasting..i'm not a fan of gloss..very bad experience with mac lip gloss..very nice colour..but after about an hour it stains your teeth.
but still.. having no make up is the best!!! i wonder how people stand wearing makeup to school.. so sweaty..uncomfortable..no matter how good your makeup is..it'll smudge and turn chalky~! yucks.
make up is for special occasion..or a light one for shopping..or meetup with girlfriends.
damn funny!! MUST WATCH! anyway he's a prof from NTU EEE.
&loved you so.
14.10.06
i almost died yesterday @ pastamania.. it was damn scary because the whole piece of squid just stuck in my throat and refuses to come out..tried throwing everything out but it was still dangling in my throat.. tried to pull it out with great force before it finally came out.. struggled for almost 2 minutes that could almost take my life away just like that. saw on newspapers so many incidents of people died of choking.. it was so freaky that yesterday..i almost hit the news headline today.
life is really so fragile.
i really don't want to grow old. i really don't want to die. i still have so many unaccomplished matters to do. i still have people i can't bear to leave on earth. i don't want to leave with regrets.
if only i can be with my dear and parents forever and forever.. i'm willing to be a slave for eternity.
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&loved you so.
the topshop warehouse dorothyperkins and topman shopping vouchers came rather early this year!! usually its around in nov/dec..for xmas shopping.. unfair!! all the good stuff aren't out yet.. but i think i should utilise these vouchers and not let them go to waste!!
alot of serious shopping need to be done.. i'm still in the process of waredrobe revamping..
think at the moment tees are quite sufficient i guess? hah..i won't mind more though.. more nice tops..! skirts, dresses, capris.. jeans..*hmrph i think i got more than enough! but i really like the guess jeans alot.. maybe i'll get it i want more shoes..! but still i am not a shoes addict.. shoes will always be last on my list. Bags!! of course!! need a nice classy handbag suitable for shopping and outings..another nice big tote bag for school.. accessories..i'll still stick to my usual shop as the 20% discount is so tempting. hah by the way /HELEN\ is now having 50-70% sale on their accessories..quite a number of nice ones 50% off..but obviously the great ones im' eyeing on are nett priced. ummmmm. i still like anna sui perfume though..but going last last last on the list..because dear doesn't like me with perfume =(
&loved you so.
12.10.06
i've missed 5 days of school. other than dragging myself so hard to school on friday to hand in my 2 assignments and taking the malay test on tues... so much for being terribly sick.. *cough*
i tried going school yesterday but when the train reaches around eunos i start my coughing symphony..my face turned so red n eyes became teary.. damn paiseh..people must be thinking i'm a carrier of whatever deadly disease.. no choice the cough is so bad and my throat hurts.. i alighted and took the opposite train back home. Shrugs..went to see a doctor again. AND i stop coughing once i stepped into the clinic! the case always whenever i'm sick and i'll just recover once i go to that clinic..
i've not been sleeping for 3 consecutive nights..since i'm coughing the night through.. and the medicine is making me so drowsy... sheesh.. I HAVE TO GO SCHOOL TODAY ........ hopefully..
&loved you so.
9.10.06
at the rate i'm going.. i think my lungs will rot soon.. arrgh. i hate to be sick.. especially coughing till your tummy hurts !!!
you miss out on all the good food... suddenly i'm thinking of fondues, ice creams, tidbits, chilli crabs.. =(
i wonder how am i going to survive writing two 3000 word "essay" that's due in 2 weeks...
i wish for holidays to come soon!! only then i can spend more time with my boy * I MISS YOU* hope you find a job soon k? =)
&loved you so.
5.10.06
terribly sick yesterday. running high fever. bad sore throat. feeling nausea. wanted to puke badly but there's just nothing for me to do so. because i didn't have any appetite and didn't eat anything. germs are everywhere now!
never go school today because i don't want to get more virus...
yesterday there's this stupid woman who keep coughing in my face without covering up. ARRGH. and she keep yanking non stop...... ears could not take it.
kw: get well soon yar?! stop sleeping so late and pon school!!! TSK TSK TSK. you should stop being a naughty girl.haha ------------------------------------------
i love my stupid boy. i love silly people. they are so cute. heh =) you make my day dear!
&loved you so.
2.10.06
its queer when you head to the O2 service centre and ask for servicing the next customer came and sat beside you had the same problem
conclusion: O2 sucks.
its ridiculous when you do not know how certain function works and you ask the person she keep hogging onto your O2 and use it herself without showing you anything and she tell you "THERE SO EASY, WHY CANNOT?? " she hands the phone back to you to your horror 4 icons on the desktop is gone you asked her what happened she answered " I DON'T KNOW, GO blahblah webiste download again LOH" WTH. she made it gone and she doesn't know how to get it back she doesn't teach you what you don't know she made lots of oily fingerprint marks on your phone she is rude to your parents (because my dad asked why less than one month the phone got problem already?? she just glared at my dad and said "DON'T KNOW, NO COMMENTS") what kind of stupid attitude is this GOSH.. not just that she doesn't know the functions well even.. just sitting there chit chatting and slacking!!!!!!!! flabbergasted. #$@#%$^%!
conclusion: O2 service centre is pure shit. they know nuts about their product and do nothing to help you. just sit there shake leg till end of the day.
i'm like so freaky pissed. wanted to trade in my O2 immediately. but i'll be losing more than 60% of the price i bought it at thus i'm stuck with it.
what's more my dad's phone is getting cranky also 1st is my N7610, now is his N6670 NOKIA why are you doing this to us!!!
pfffffft. and he lost my mum's phone. someone on his cab stole it!!!!!!!!! right in his presence!!!
then we have a big fat 7cm long lizard flying in our rooms. Jumping from table to wall.. bleeding all over when its tail broke off. *female lizard??? -_- spent 2 hrs on it
then my mum complained about an Unknown flying object that dashed from outside into my bathroom..and DISAPPEARED.
sigh. its really a sucky week for me
what's more i can't finished my assignments
AND..HAI forget don't mention it...........
nothing is going right at all.
&loved you so.
1.10.06
dear ORD le *finally* !! 2 years are now over.. going to hunt for jobs le.. i'll try my best to help you !! =)
sorry i screw up my one week recess by falling sick. as a result i can't go anyway.not to even say start on any assignments or meet you.. i'm sorry dear
its sunday. i have not start on my work at all i get so frustrated with myself that i just broke down yesterday. yesterday everything just goes wrong in the house and thus i can't even start on my work ARRGH
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suddenly i feel so girl-craze. because i really want to buy *GE DOU TIAN WANG* VCD that's so teenager-ish. pardon me but this can relieve the stress from being a "pre-adult"
i also want anna sui perfume!!! the new /secret wish\ is so YUMMY!!! i don't mind /dolly girl\ too.. SWEET!! can i own both? heh
sparklethots
