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Y FreshMaker.

ntu soci 3rd year x))
17th april 1987
5'7 tall
I don't tolerate incongruity
Music, Dancefloor makes me come alive
A world of self denial i live
embodiment of ice

YDesires.

canon ixus 970is or
fujifilm f100d
clothes
maintain GPA of 4.0 above
happiness
pretty skin

YCraves.
pretty desserts :)





YEpitome.
afiah
agri
charmain
cheryl
daphne
dawnyang
efmw
farhan
grace
jansie
janice
jasmineeng
jien
june
junxian
khinewa
msng
nira
nurul
pam
pamlim
peggy
peifang
pengyu
qiqi
sally
sharon
sherlyn
tingfang
xiaxue
yiming
yiqing
yuhui
friendster
singabloodypore
singaporemind
i-speak



Ycelebrityblogsipatronise.
andreafonseka
andylee
annkok
bryan
bryanwong
carrieyeo
choi
chubby
danielchan
dasmondkoh
edison
eelynkok
FANNWONG!
feliciachin
ivylee
joannepeh
kristyyeung
mcking
natho
patriciamok
qiyuwu
quanyifeng
sharonau
shuqi
taypinghui
972violetrecipe
bossacafez
madbaker


Yaddicts.
Appetite Mag
Bakerzin
cupcakes
roomfordessert
sparklette.net

belinda
blingalicious
dawne
eaindria
dessertcouture
fashionista-closet
funmobilephones

jewelparlour
jocelyn
lavender
lingglass
mistressofglam
orientalrose
Exquisitely handmade bags and other fun stuffs! sparklethots
_spree
sgspree
spreesgalore
spreehouse




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YHistory.
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29.10.05

hopefully its a positive reply!
but i doubt i can get into the business one. but it'll definitely be cool and i'll be waiting.
hah.but still i'm still waiting PATIENTLY for confirm+chop email for the audit trainee.

i'm mad.
my A's have not even started.

i can't finish my stupid LEP even.
brain is now having a serious traffic jam.

but i know he's there for me!
something to be happy about. =)

all the best to my mugger friends out there too!!
giant: you claim only having 3 friends. but your 3 friends are the bestest you can have lol =)


&loved you so.
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26.10.05

i hate charity shows.
they just love comparing the number of calls each celebrity raised.
especially zoe and fann.
HELLO!?!
they always dedicate almost 45mins to zoe and at most 15mins to fann..here you want to compare how great zoe is as a fund raiser??
i wonder why people just love criticising all the items..
but not zoe's one.
in line with fann..who's the celebrity star?
she's just one who depends on her enhanced bust after birth for those advertisments and endorsements..bragging about her oversupply of breastmilk..etc etc.
excuse me she's not the only female in singapore who knows how to give birth..moreover there are plenty of artises giving birth to cute babies too?!
why is all the attention on that whatever AH JIE.
but i don't deny her baby is utterly cute.
i just can't stand those people keep criticising others lar.
just mind their own business. (ok i'm criticising here also..but i'm pissed!)

and i don't get what's wrong with TONG XIN YUAN.
the whole world is bombarding how boring and stupid is that show.
makes them sick..sianx..irritated..
then why are they even watching in the first place?
so smart go write your own script lar..c'mon..get a life!
i think its a pretty nice show.

i'm so into post A's activities already.


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23.10.05
















camwhorers in bugis. *boo*

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how can i forget this!! miss pinky. =)

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a lovely sakae treat from miss richie (the taitai on the right).
giant's on the left and dwarf's me.

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that's a dumb expression. i'm just back from my cousin's wedding.

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blurry beauty. i like it.




















us at pacific coffee.
i waited since 7am!! i really thought i got the time wrong since i was the only living soul roaming around at that time.
but the 90mins wait is definitely worthwhile.

headed back home to put down his barangbarang..bathe..
took out my touchdown present for him..PIGGY!
ok i got that for a reason. we share the same nose. and its damn cute.
so yar. it shall sit right on his bed to remind him to think of me.

we went cafe cartel for lunch!!
as usual we got our softshellcrab n prawn combo..thai sauce pasta..*yummilicious*


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20.10.05

people forever filled with sacarsm when commenting on others' looks
especially being so critical to the extent it becomes so so mean
*shallow personality*
seems like you are thinking you're the most perfect individual on earth
i'm disgusted

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he's quite seriously injured in brunei.
he'll be touching down tomorrow morning.
i know i must rush over no matter what.
i just went to bugis to buy him something before going home.
i know i'll be suffering from insomnia tonight.


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18.10.05

**if one spends all time lamenting on own looks..
this only shows what a superficial they are..
reason being they never even spend some time reflecting themselves..paying attention to their character and everything.**


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bestest//happy//bish//ade n me//dhssbmates//cutee//pinky//see no evil,hear no evil,say no evil//yummyyummy//aww..//*erhem*//fu n june//me n wy//me n ky//xingfu rite//hugs

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official end of my jc school life.
perhaps the first and last time i ever see so many people present in school.
the performances were okay initially.
but the dedication part became so draggy that the whole momentum is gone.
to the extent there was nothing touching or teary.
people were getting impatient.
and people don't respect the emcees.
*shakes head*

i won't be missing the school.
maybe some people.
the friendships made there.
new ones.extended ones.

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he's coming back on 21st.
and i've no chance to meet him.
wth.
my heart is growing fonder as day passes.

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tomorrow's my cousin's wedding again.
somehow i've no mood to go.
i feel like staying home but..forget it.

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i just realise my waredrobe is bursting.
so i've decided to give away part of the collection to my cousin.
left with the basics
-->tops: 1 fcuk, 1 bebe, 1 warehouse, plenty from topshop, 2 queen couture, 2 fox, some others..
-->bottoms: 1 levis jeans, 1 topshop jeans, 2 mango pants, 1 white pants, 1 giodarno khakis, plenty of skirts from topshop, urban & co., fashion lab..
i'll be shopping after my A's for new collection.

but seriously what i need most is a decent pair of heels, flats, pumps, shoes whatever.
big feet girls are dreaders really when it comes to shoe purchasing.
gosh.

i need a handbag too. my permanent one hopefully.
i use to like bonia alot don't know why.
but i think its so common already.

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hjms//smile//hmrph//sunshine girls//u moved//licklick//happy//angry//sad//wahh//duh//stunned//lol//scary//cute//squeezeme


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17.10.05


bad cake//giant&dwarf//adidas model//disappear//lao di fang//shaky//happy trios//retarded me//look at ch//we love to smell yh//besties//artistic//riche&poorie//watch out//i'm forced u see//vavavoom

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huihui got her pay and she gave me n ch a lovely sakae treat!!
thanks!! wait for mine!! though it's going to be quite some time from now.
and please do not forget me during your hk disney trip!! *hint*
and your taiwan trip with ch *double hint* i want lots of cheap stuff! clothes bags lala!

they played a mean trick on sue.
i'm the innocent one.
boohoo.

i'm so going airport for some of the shops there!! which i can't find it in the malls here.

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you know i miss you. come back soon okay?
one more week and i can't wait anymore :(


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15.10.05

simplicity is the best. nothing but cool.
totally divine.
beloved honda civic.
no evo..with this..is still as great.


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如果的事


我想过一件事
不是坏的事
一直对自己坚持
爱情的意思
像风没有理由
轻轻吹着走
谁爱谁没有
所谓的对与错
不管时间
说着我们在一起有多坎坷
我不敢去证实
爱你两个字
不是对自己矜持
也不是讽刺
别人都在说我其实很无知
这样的感情被认定很放肆
我很不服
我还在想着那件事
如果你已经不能控制
每天想我一次
如果你因为我而诚实
如果你看我的电影
听我爱的cd
如果你能带我一起旅行
如果你决定跟随感觉
为爱勇敢一次
如果你说我们有彼此
如果你会开始相信
这般恋爱心情
如果你能给我如果的事
我只要你一件如果的事
我会奋不顾身地去爱你

will you love someone of the same sex?

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it'll be farewell assembly next tuesday.
i need poppers.

a new lease of life right after A's.

a new me.

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no one will understand why i dread lep lessons so much.

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he may be back early..
i'm waiting =)

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Seven things i lyk the most
one and only dear
mum & dad
besties : kw/june/chu/yh/fu
ekin + kelly
sincerity
money (practical what)
peace

five things that scare me
my parents leaving me in future
lizards days
w/o him

end of the world
terrorists

five important things in my room
queensized bed
computer

mirror

waredrobe
handphone


five things i plan to do before i die
tour around the world
get married on my own cruise named after me
have two kids
meet ekin in person
repay any debts if any

Seven things i can do
eat alot
sleep
cry
sing
dance
dream
love him

five things i can't do
study
betray anyone
throw temper/attitude at anyone
skate
activities which involves height

Seven things i say the most
huh??
dunno leh
haiz
damn
shit
hypocrite
i think so

Seven celebs i admire
ekin cheng
kelly chen
gigi lai
qi yu wu

fann wong

angelina jolie & jessica alba
shi xin huey



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14.10.05

neurosis will be my fatal one.


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13.10.05

I stare blankly.
I shrug.

Perhaps inadequacy has already found a permanent home while roaming aimlessly.

The skies aren't clearing.

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was deciding between the hk disney cd and kelly chen's one.
i chose the former.
but i pretty tempted about the latter too.

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a new sms after two days wait.
*smile*


&loved you so.
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Democracies are hypocritical, disguising a lack of principle beneath empty rhetoric. Don't you agree?

Talk about freedom of choice and opportunity, we still live under a government we have chosen and allow us to be buttressed by the rules. Seems theoretically correct huh?? but is everything as good as it seems??

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anyway i was wondering "callous and reckless remarks on racial or religious subjects have the potential to cause social disorder, in whatever medium or forum they are expressed"...how is blogging going to cause SOCIAL DISORDER?? hmrph..unless some creative directors decide to turn them into drama scripts??

number of people being charged with making seditious comments are on the rise, i'm feeling quite indignant about all these...but alas...i can't deny that it is somewhat morally wrong.

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I'm going to throw a spanner in the works. Perhaps I have grown cynical over the interpretation of case law in Singapore.


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11.10.05

i feel depressed, gloomy, sunken.
inadequency roam my heart.

i don't what's the cause of this feel.
but i'm sure it won't go off.


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It's definitely indubitable that thunder girl is mean, sacarstic, uncivilised, rowdy, whatever you name it.

It's eluctable to prevent myself from feeling murderous the moment i step into the school compound, see the plastics, the meanies, the hypocrites.

I'm not coldhearted.
It's just impossible to make myself even to miss anything related to this school after I leave, be it place or people.

I'm not exaggerated..but its really an agony for me.
call me anti social.
but with such people I don't see the need to even socialise.

Just leave me alone and I'll be thankful.

I just can't stand people who one hand say they don't like ABC yet in front of them still put on that silly faker smile and joke along with them. You aren't fit to criticise people this way.

I just wish to get out of hell soon.
Get over with this tormenting A's.
Hit at least the minimum requirement for NUS don't know what course. (I've no idea)

For now..my only beam of light in life is to receive his message from Brunei.

I'm really tired..

I'm escaping from reality I know.
By skipping school is not a solution.
But i get the tranquility i want.
That's good enough.


&loved you so.
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10.10.05

You are an Atheist

When it comes to religion, you're a non-believer (simple as that).
You prefer to think about what's known and proven.
You don't need religion to solve life's problems.
Instead, you tend to work things out with logic and philosophy.



You Are 30% Boyish and 70% Girlish

Even if you're not a girl, you're very feminine.
You're in touch with your feelings, and your heart rules you.
A bit of a emotional roller coaster, one moment you're up and the next you're down.
But no matter what, you try to be as cute and perky as possible.



Your Personality Profile

You are elegant, withdrawn, and brilliant.
Your mind is a weapon, able to solve any puzzle.
You are also great at poking holes in arguments and common beliefs.

For you, comfort and calm are very important.
You tend to thrive on your own and shrug off most affection.
You prefer to protect your emotions and stay strong.



Your Hidden Talent

Your natural talent is interpersonal relations and dealing with people.
You communicate well and are able to bring disparate groups together.
Your calming presence helps everything go more smoothly.
People crave your praise and complements.



What Your Sleeping Position Says

You are calm and rational.
You are also giving and kind - a great friend.
You are easy going and trusting.
However, you are too sensible to fall for mind games.



Your Birthdate: April 17

Your birth on the 17th day of the month suggests that you are very lucky financially, because this date indicates a solid business sense.
Although you are probably very honest and ethical, this birthday enables you to be shrewd and successful in the world of business and commercial enterprise.
You have excellent organizational, managerial, and administrative capabilities enabling you to handle large projects and significant amounts of money with relative ease.

You are ambitious and highly goal-oriented, although you may be better at starting projects than you are at finishing them.
A sensitivity in your nature, often repressed below the surface of awareness, makes it hard to give or receive affection.



You're a Romantic Kisser

For you, kissing is all about feeling the romance
You love to kiss under the stars or by the sea
The perfect kiss involves the perfect mood
It's pretty common for kisses to sweep you off your feet



The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are optimistic and happy.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage pessimistically. You don't think happy marriages exist anymore.

In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.



Your Ideal Relationship is Marriage

You've dated enough to know what you want.
And that's marriage - with the right person.
You're serious about settling down some time soon.
Even if you haven't met the person you want to get hitched to!



Your Personality Is

Artisan (SP)


You are both grounded and flexible. You adapt well to new situations.
You are playful and free spirited - but you are also dependable and never flaky.

You don't do well in conservative, stuffy situations.
It's probably very hard for you to keep a normal job or stay in school.

You are always up for fun and adventure. Most people are too boring for you.
You take risks and bend the rules. And if things don't work out, you chock it up to life experience.

In love, you tend to take things quickly - but you have a huge problem with commitment.

At work, you need to make your own rules. You're best suited to be an entrepreneur.

With others, you are animated and physical. You prefer doing something with friends to just hanging out.

As far as your looks go, you tend to be buff and in good shape. Your spend more time on your body than your clothes.

On weekends, you need to keep active. From cooking up a storm to running a 5K, you wear yourself out.



You Are 24 Years Old

Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.

13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in this world.

20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and new experiences.

30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!

40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get to sit back and relax.



B+

Your senses are pretty sharp (okay, most of the time)
And it takes something big to distract you!



How You Life Your Life

You seem to be straight forward, but you keep a lot inside.
You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.
Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down.



Your Brain's Pattern

Your mind is a multi dimensional wonderland, with many layers.
You're the type that always has multiple streams of though going.
And you can keep these thoughts going at any time.
You're very likely to be engaged in deep thought - and deep conversation.



How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.

You tend to give more than take in relationships.

You need your space and privacy. You don't like to be smothered.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.



Your Power Color Is Red-Orange

At Your Highest:

You are warm, sensitive, and focused on your personal growth.

At Your Lowest:

You become defensive and critical if you feel attacked.

In Love:

You are loyal - but you demand the respect you deserve.

How You're Attractive:

You are very affectionate and inspire trust.

Your Eternal Question:

"Am I Respected?"



Your Mood Ring is Light Blue

Emotions mixed
Unsettled
Cool



What Your Underwear Says About You

You like your underwear to make you feel girlish and pretty. Let's hope you're a chick.

You're comfortable in your own skin - and don't care to impress anyone.



Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover

You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you!
Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter.
You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you.

You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorable
Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life
By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover.

Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives.
Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours.
No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover.



Your Career Type: Artistic

You are expressive, original, and independent.
Your talents lie in your artistic abilities: creative writing, drama, crafts, music, or art.

You would make an excellent:

Actor - Art Teacher - Book Editor
Clothes Designer - Comedian - Composer
Dancer - DJ - Graphic Designer
Illustrator - Musician - Sculptor

The worst career options for your are conventional careers, like bank teller or secretary.



You Are 40% Weird

Normal enough to know that you're weird...
But too damn weird to do anything about it!



Your IQ Is 100

Your Logical Intelligence is Below Average

Your Verbal Intelligence is Average

Your Mathematical Intelligence is Exceptional

Your General Knowledge is Above Average



You Are Somewhat Machiavellian

You're not going to mow over everyone to get ahead...
But you're also powerful enough to make things happen for yourself.
You understand how the world works, even when it's an ugly place.
You just don't get ugly yourself - unless you have to!



You Are Likely a Second Born

At your darkest moments, you feel inadequate.
At work and school. you do best when you're evaluating.
When you love someone, you offer them constructive criticism.

In friendship, you tend to give a lot of feedback - positive and negative.
Your ideal careers are: accounting, banking, art, carpentry, decorating, teaching, and writing novels.
You will leave your mark on the world with art and creative projects.


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can't stop smiling when my hp goes *beep beep beep*..

anyway wasn't really into intensive mugging these days.
was more of planning my post A's activities.

my job.
my new hp.
shopping spree.
denim jacket + guess jacket.
my new haircut.
my voxy manicure.

zoo.sentosa.cycling.picnic.shopping.eating.kbox.archery?!rifle?!etc etc..
with my boy! and of course my dear friends which includes yh,ch,kw,fu,sal..

spent my time yesterday packing my accessories cupboard.
came out with the kose+clinique+biotherm facial products goodie bag for her.
one thing good when you buy your cosmetics or facial products during midyear or endyear.
you get whole load of freebies.
which is just too much for me.

i'm looking forward to friday.


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9.10.05

i'm no longer pissed.
just don't have the *click* mood.
its the 1st attempt i try to throw some attitude i failed.
its not even a day!
ARGH.
i hate myself.

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2 smses from brunei :):)
i dreamt of him too!

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cramps are killing me..
i'm hibernating for 60% of the day..

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/into the blue\ is damn nice..
jessica alba is still as pretty as ever..(no doubt her ERHEM is somehow said to be fake..)
but its the face that attracts me :)
/the 40 year old virgin\ is ok bahx..great for laughs..

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6.10.05

i have had a happy day.
smile smile smile.

even though i'm ultra deadbeat.tired.drained.
looking at how much hw i've missed doing.
arrgh.let's put that aside first okay?

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humans are superficial.
no matter how nice a person is..
undoubtedly there's still a devilish part within.
what matters it how much the angelic part outweighs the devilsih part.
so what has become the trustworthiness of one?
discounted a great deal.

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i want that smile of mine to last.


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4.10.05

for all i know..i find it rather hard to speak english fluently now.
i totally agree to the point that environment you're in plays a big role.
not saying my english was that fantastic..
but its definitely one of the top in primary school (SOOOOO CANNOT IMAGINE)
secondary school..deteriorating due to the chinese school i'm in..
with all my malay friends gone..
NYJC saved me..i was pretty able to speak like how i did in the past..
GP lessons weren't a torture then..i know what the lesson is..
know many answers that the teachers posted and set us to do..
TJC..brought me back to square one like i was in DHS.
i was packing my stuff yesterday..
i saw a few assignments i did when i first came into TJC..
those comprehension and stuff..i got almost 90% of the marks..
and the way i answered..to be frank i somehow can't believe it was written by me.
i write in super bad broken engrrrish now.
freakkkk.
GP is my 2nd "feared" lesson following right after Human geog.
i really want to catch up but i fear that its too late to get a respectable mark.

still remember how i struggle with chinese in primary one?
i can't say a single word!
i worked hard for it..my family speaks mandarin anyway..
i jumped from a 40+ to 100.
i'm proud to be the one getting best in chinese for consecutive 6 years.
top in level for 3 years...
GLORIOUS PAST.
totally just meant for reminiscing only.

i'm getting off tangent already.

anyway i'm just blogging for the sake of blogging.
but i'm pretty disturbed by thunder girls *again*
abit unhappy with some bu zi dong people.
oh well. nothing much i can do anyway.

ask me which are my weaker subjects, which are my stronger subjects..
i can say..everything is in equipoise.
( DEF C5?) -_-

countdown: 2 more days to brunei :( :(


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3.10.05

i had this utterly sinister look when i was on my way home.
or rather..murderous.

sometimes its not on purpose we want to discriminate them.
tell me why its always them doing those irritable acts in public.
tell me why its always them who behave like ditzy lala babarians in public.
i try to look things in an unbiased way.
but in the end..i still come to the same conclusion.
tell me about it!

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i'm abnormal.
i think i lack some laughing genes.
i can't fathom why they can laugh practically over everything.

when its SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO................ not funny.

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i'm not trying to be raucous.
but i just want to state a fact that i can't stand people giving attitude to others when they aren't feeling good about something.
especially over results.
its okay to feel sad/disapointed.
no one will blame you!
instead people will be there willing to share your problems or hear you out.
but if you think the world owes you for your grades..
no one will probably bother about you.

not like when things were to be another way round..
these people will be discerned enough to like even FEEL your existence.
they just rave non stop about their so called stupid mistakes..they could have done better..what lousy grades they have..not realising you'r just THERE.

its just human nature you see.
when u fail.u hope for a pass.
when u pass.u hope for better marks.
humans are never contented with what they have.

i'm not trying to be mean.
(that's the kind of mark we usually get isn't it..?? admit it..you're just feeling unbalanced because other people did much better..like how humans always give the -_- face to the top scorer..reason is simple..our inner self is jealous)
i'm not being un-concerning.
maybe i'm sick and tired of this..
you aren't discerning about my feelings.
then why should I lower myself to face that kind of attiude you give..
isn't that "zi tao ku chi"??

i'm not specifically saying anyone here.
perhaps a certain part of it is.
but mostly i'm just elaborating on the point..creating my own scenario.
but its not entirely untrue isn't it?
we see such people everywhere..even next time when we go to work..

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something to be happy about..
my morning is a pleasant one with him :)
mac breakfast at bedok central.. to think he even come my place as early as 615am to wait for me :)
yummy yummy.
sometimes you just can't deny the fact that even a plain bowl of porridge tastes so awefully NICE with someone you love around.
like how much i hate to eat noodles..
he once cooked instant noodles for me..with just an egg in it..
i can finished it in 5 mins.
heaven!

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i realy don't know what i should do.
at times during math lesson i'll be thinking..
omg..its just holy shit the lecturer is blabbering about..
seems like i know everything..
i did all my work in advance..
sitting there daydreaming..dazing for the second hand to move.
YET..
my math is giving me those horrendous grades of my life.
F F F F F
my exams scripts are always in a mess.
why is god playing such trick to me?

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coffee talk :)


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1.10.05

there are people who claim they never study at all, probably only reading it the day before the exams.
there are people who claim they are definitely going to fail after papers, in consensus with fellow classmates, where some are really going to be at the peat.
yet these people also never fails to top and score very well.

you believe them?

crap.

or you are just telling me you only need minimal effort to get fantastic results....
contrasting my stupidity.

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i wish the thunder girls will get out of my life SOON.
they never fail to cast a bad bad splitting headache whenever they start their ritual cries.
ARGH.

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