ntu soci 3rd year x))
17th april 1987
5'7 tall
I don't tolerate incongruity
Music, Dancefloor makes me come alive
A world of self denial i live
embodiment of ice
YDesires.
canon ixus 970is or
fujifilm f100d
clothes
maintain GPA of 4.0 above
happiness
pretty skin
that's probably the last time i saw myself in straight hair.. it was taken during xmas eve.. on his car
trust me. I don't like CYNDI at all.. i'm just cover some flaws on my wall a few years back and i'm too lazy to take it down.
shan liang san jie mei of BSL --> yh elsie me taken at like..8am in centrepoint mac! =) *you'll never see elsie's teeth in all the photos man..
thought that by leaving that dreaded school my life will be free from those people trying to dampen my day by giving me shit. i'm so wrong. all i can say is a big sorry. i don't waste my precious time entertaining childish people.
fu: i love your giant card ok!! but who cares about how "ugly" your handwriting is right.. i'll prefer you to pen the words down yourself!! =)
i've sent out 30 cards this year..due to a budget deficit..only to those friends whom i've more contact and closer with! as you grow older.. your mailbox will no longer be flooded with xmas cards like when you're in primary/secondary school.. got used to it.. abit disappointing but still.. just hope my card can bring people at the receiving end a smile that brightens up the day!! i'm equally satisfied and happy with people bothering to sms me telling me they've received it and saying thanks! hope all out there have had a wonderful xmas =)
i'll be seeing him in..3 hours time?? he's dropping by my house after booking out! finally! my happy lalala.
some plans for jan *meet up with my dear kw! long awaiting chilling session and kbox right! *june,fu,emily,yc,ys,yq,etc must plan my time and meet too! *nonetheless 3 grass sisters outing.. which happens to be my treat this time round!!
&loved you so.
29.12.05
i changed my mind. 'coz i've learnt the art of appreciating my hair. and i think its definitely worth every single dollar! so its a smart choice to move from Reds to Monsoon =)
imagine stepping into a shop the people takes you for some VIP. give you the best service and all. so scared you might just throw milions of cold hard cash right smack in their face for their lousy attitude!
my hair stylist promises free haircut and fringe trimming everytime i needed it! privilege again. salon directors are really up to their names. you'll never walk out of the salon with disappointment. i'm satisfied and pleased with new hairdo^-^
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work is getting dull when you're looking forward to the long weekend. also thinking about when are you getting your pay. anyway all goes to my mum. she's paid for my expenses all these while..which sums up to about 4 months of my pay (before even getting my 1st month's).
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fishy ho: at least i don't spend on tonnes of tops,shoes,skirts,pants!! i don't go for quantity like you!! so you're also one BaiJinNu okay. i don't own an ipod!
giant: win lo. your whole blog is about your sumi,maymay,maryann,pamo,amei,stupid. fine if you paichi me. but don't so obvious right. wah lau. my heart PIANG PIANG PIANG already la. extort fish n co treat then dui wo hao right!!! *sobs*
kw: yesterday was a miracle that you actually took less than a day to reply. with more than one reply somemore!! must be all your contacts disappear then left me only right. GOSH. you're the busy woman also la. "uncontactable" one. we'll meet up soon and you better be free!
fu: quick change your hairstyle before 1st january 2006!! i can't wait for our new nicknames you know!
still have to arrange time for my taitai emily, andrew, yc, ys.. oh man..my life now is all about sleep,eat,work,mummy,him. friends are throwing bombs at me already.
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missing him so much!!! he got to sign 3 extra duties 'coz of his "long" hair.. he was pei-ing me then left with no time to cut before he booked in. SORRY dear =( its like so tiring in ns. i must make his weekends happy and enjoyable. one more thing is that.. he likes my new hair!!!! that's the best comment to me.
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can those surveyors, selling insurances, jewelleries, credit cards, modelling stir clear of my way. its getting damn irritating wherever you go you have to stop and waste your precious time with them. even when you REJECT hard down they are so persistent. *slap slap slap*
elsie : at least 25 la! SC : so 28! surveyors : married with how many kids huh?! hair stylist : 25 or 26 lo. (other stylists nod in unison) relatives : huh? how come you 18 only? don't look like at all!! furthermore the whole world who tried calling my house.. will take my mum for ME and vice versa.
FREAK. i'm suffering from some serious AGEING disease is it.
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&loved you so.
28.12.05
spent a bomb on my hair. i'm feeling guilty. i'm feeling uneasy. i'm trying hard to love my hair to make the money worth.
&loved you so.
26.12.05
mini morgan clutch. 3 mango pants.
220 gone.
penniless.
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we're going out for family dinner =)
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&loved you so.
25.12.05
xmas lunch at legend. boo what a day. it rained after that. we were the ones who thought of flee-ing after buffet. we were the ones who walked away with that bulky games-1st-prize. elsie won the lucky draw also. 1st timers luck? haha. by the way.food was only normal. it was damn frigging cold there. played games with shoes off. the toilets are "translucent". nonetheless.i know it was not that bad after all and i didn't regret staying.
bye bye canon ixus 750 =( say hi to panasonic fx-9. that stupid idiot steal my camera strap. arrgh.i'm too lazy to go back to that place to get it. count my luck.
Merry Xmas to my fellow friends.. be it my primary school friends.. secondary school or jc friends..4k..34/04.. close friends like kw,grass sisters,june,fu,laolee,ems,.. etc etc!!! 2006 will definitely be a wonderful year ahead =)
millions of sorry goes to andrew for missing your xmas party! hope you enjoyed! and i'm feeling so guilty for not going swo's concert!! and guess what..i was so happy to receive mr ng's xmas message! like its quite pleasing to know that..even though i some sort like pangseh the band.. be it xmas,grads..he's always still informing me and stuff.. make me feel so guilty.
i really miss playing my bassoon. i really feel like playing in swo again. but guess its no longer the same..since its becoming the 2nd dhssb there. miss playing with -the greatest- (andrew) i miss squeezing in mr ng's puny car. miss everything and everything.
i didn't go bistro 21 or harry's bar. with his car in possession for 24 hrs.. we went parkway,marina south,marina square,mellenia walk,tamp,ecp,"excursion"..in just a day! goodness. every where shows the signal *carpark full*
hope you guys had fun at MOS last night *cheers*
midnight show tickets are so hot. i can't get them. shrugs
i love you dear. you're the bestest thing i can ever have.
you purposely leave camp with unfinished work to get that 40-buck-logcake for me. without dinner! you told me you ate just not to worry me. you left at 12 and only sms when you're on the way back to camp to finish your work. went home at 4am to sleep. you're just so sweet. hugs.
i love my parents!
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23.12.05
the four leaf clover pendant my mum bought me doesn't even work miracles. like somehow give me bad luck.haha. he spoil the chain that day =( now i've to get another to replace!
finally i'm seeing fishy ho after dozen years. she's the new bai jing nu now! *YEY* i receive my bag and gums from her already.thanks BJN!! =) =) lol..
i hope i get to buy my cam today. what's xmas without a cam?!
giant!! why did you even go back that JNR shop to work. i'm so disappointed with you! =x
but hey got staff price anot!hahha.
i want THAT watch. i want THAT chocolate log cake. i want THAT cam right now.
Ms Fu. stop being so picky over jobs please!!
&loved you so.
20.12.05
3 tops from topshop. heart-shaped cookie from mrs field's.
happy 21st birthday sweetheart =)
&loved you so.
18.12.05
i'm doing my best to qiong finish at least 30 xmas cards this morning. i was thinking..do some people still remember my existence anot? feeling quite melancholic. and perhaps..sometimes when i see some people online.. i really wish for at least a HI.. though i know its impossible. wanted to write to these people as well. but i'm lost for words to pen down. arrgh i suck.
KHINE WA!! why i don't have any CHRISTMAS CARD from YOU YOU YOU?!?! sobs.
&loved you so.
Ms Fu. dozen and million sorries to you =(
&loved you so.
16.12.05
stupid is slacking at home while poor me n BEST friend goes to work.
stupid can open her own shop just plaining from her bangkok shopping spree.
giant goes to work today at southaven. i'm awaiting patiently for my xmas presents and free treat.
xmas is coming in less than 9 days yet i've not started on my cards i bought long ago. tonight must burn midnight oil already.
i got a new idol. BEST friend knows it. i want to take her picture to monsoon for my haircut pretty soon.
i'm in love with cine food court. can stupid please join us soon?
i'm itching for that guess sale. can someone please bring me there? no thanks to mango. age range from 12 to 60 odd goes there. its like a flea market. i'm shocked.
i'm still waiting IMPATIENTLY for my birkenstocks stupid. where are they!
i'm still thinking of how to buy my A&F tees. i'm a tees addict. if newurbanmale and queencouture got vip card for application, please inform me =)
i'm waiting for ms fu for her 72 bian. but please save those cemented makeup for your "profession" only okay?? just to let you know i'm in anti-cement-face clan. and not to forget anti-revealing clan.
he's coming for his 1st dinner at my house tonight. haha.he's "Excited". he's afraid of my dad. hugs.he's cute.
8 random facts about myself ##
i was a child model when i was 5 or 6 years old..for some US magazines..just 5 shots earn my 1st pay --> $100..used to be from elite models and quest..but it didn't last..i just couldn't adapt myself to such "bimbotic * materialistic" lifestyle.
i use my office hours to do online shopping, blogging, friendster browsing, msn chatting, internet sms-ing.*keep it a secret* (but i still managed to finish my job very fast)
i love him so much to an extent that i'm shocked by myself..the endless things i'm willing to sacrifice and give in to him.
i hate shopping.but i love buying clothes.contrary uh?
fetish for plain rice only.guess my friends knew it.i hate noodles.
i'm a very home person.i hate going out.i can rot on the sofa the whole month just surviving on television alone.with tidbits of course.
i spent 70 bucks at candy empire.with my mummy.freak.
i love my close friends.but i could hardly find a suitable time to meet up.or perhaps i just am too lazy to do so.moreover i'm someone who detest going out at night.
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15.12.05
by the way. star idols -- alicia should be out. 1> she can't speak chinese properly want to be what idol lar, more like a vase. 2> she's a bimbo (looks without brains). 3> she super dia. goodness..like over-do her whatever sweetness she want to portray.
joey is pretty! she's the only one who can act properly. duh.why is she out i can't fathom. pretty babe should have tonnes of supporters.
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elsie's back!! finally a company. my grass sister so ingrateful. back le never come msn pei me chat. haha.. job is boring. since i'm given such pathetic pay. i've to plan my time "properly".. found one damn nice blog to read.. nothing special.but reading it seems like reading my own reflection blogging.. internet sms-ing..
i realise i'm really an introvert. i don't like socializing anymore. perhaps so different from eileen a few years back. who loves partying and knowing new friends. now i'm anti-social. i'm not really comfortable with noises and talkative people.
in office wear is such a horror. imagine everyday people approach you as if you got this tai-tai-i'm-so-rich face.. asking you to buy insurance..sign on credit card..buy what thousand over k accessories.
mummy got me this 4leave pendant. its not giving me any luck at all. *sobs
had lunch at pastamania with Ms Fu.. so much to tell you! but yar..given my personality its so hard for me to express my care and concern for you.. just here to say no matter what i'm always here to give you the warmest hug =)
i think i'm strong. hiding in my hard shell that people can't crack no matter how hard they try.. yet deep inside i'm just a normal being longing to be loved and taken care of.
i miss him so much. wish he could be around 24/7 by my side..
&loved you so.
13.12.05
so drained =( yesterday almost work till i dozed off..
met him yesterday.. he bought a seiko watch..nice!! he bought a bonia wallet for my mummy too.. *hugs* meaning he can't buy his desktop already..=(
having cold recently. so much for working in an office.
stupid called from thailand to make me jealous of her! =x i won't!
poor elsie going AMK today..Jurong tomorrow.. i'm all alone..sobs..
&loved you so.
11.12.05
dinner at "xiao hong lou" at ECP. was great..!! chilly,black pepper crab,fish,drunken prawns,sea cucumber,etc etc..all the usual seafood.. w his family and godmother's family..! i'm shy!! i think his ben korkor and jo jiejie (they are married by the way) are quite fun-loving.. his gan-ma and gan-pa very funny and cute.. it was a good experience nonetheless =)
went home already 11+.. he drove to my house..then went up to eat mochi =)
he's in camp now.. *eating snake*..suppose to be on duty but sleeping! lol.
anyway i'm going out later with my mummy.. perhaps to get his present..take a look at digicams.. and most importantly shopping=)
but i'm so tired.. tomorrow's monday already.. SIAN-ED.
&loved you so.
10.12.05
work was bad..the only good thing over auditing is that accounts doesn't require me to go out of office like Jurong (lolx).. BUT... it's so stressing! damn straining on my eyes..and mentally drained. =( can't afford to be careless or slow..because i already have lots of work piling up for me to do.. have to depend on myself.. there's no one i can ask =( liling is forever busy. nowelle looks intimidating. and i feel so paiseh keep bothering yahutha since she has her own work to stress on. there's me sitting in front of the computer figuring out solutions myself! going through hills of tax invoices, nets transaction, bank statements, visa receipts.. checking them one by one is no joke! heh.one thing to be proud of is that..nowelle was mumbling to herself about me... finishing something she'll take half a day to do takes me only 1 hour..then she give herself this bewildered expression. =) =)
faintz. people there are so $#%^ slack! the younger generation that is.. seeing elsie and yh packing the files and doing strenuous work.. what they did were there chit-chatting and munching keropok. we're paid 1/4 of their pay la!!! why are we working so hard anyway?? i still don't understand why we can't get a higher pay. maybe they should consider december a training month.. but we already are doing their workscope!! we should be paid more!! sobx*
but from what i see..the accountants are all workaholics. liling.muipen.yahutha. then nowelle and margaret. and they are punctual!!
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met up with MS FU for lunch.. she gave a hug to yh. *erhem. unfair lar* meaning you're not excited to see me =( haha. pass her the camera. suggest her to take picture with yh since they are proclaimed longlost friend.
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elsie rocks for a certain reason. "BEST" friend! because we've common dislikes. *yey* next week is just me and her. with dearest yh happily in bangkok. now that the whole office knows she's off.. i bet they'll be bugging her for food after she returned!!
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dinner at marche with giant, stupid and dear. it turned out ok..better than expected. haha.perhaps because giant was there! she's like so "friendly" (talkative).. and god wonders why she and him are so common.. like longlost siblings! bowling.arcade.etc etc.. and she talks so fast.. washing machine becomes mushi mushi.. only he gets what she's saying! i'm jealous! =( lol.
thanks dear..for coming all the way to orchard to meet us.. despite how tired you are. hugs.i appreciate your effort okay..=)
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just finished tuition.. goodness. that kid is easy to teach..in a way..because he's quite smart.. BUT he's so arrogant. i can't stand the way he speaks. keep telling me he's a busy man.hello. you're only a going-to-be secondary one student. how busy can you get? and just for not being to do the sums with a breeze don't give you the legacy to scold mathematician stupid idiots. shortcuts are not stupid either.*faintx* they help you to save time! *screamS*
MS FU. this kid here loves acting too. but one difference is he hates mediacorp. he claims that people there are fake. talk like mr know it all. ahha.
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later will be dinner at ECP with his family and relatives.. i'm still pondering what to wear. guess casual will do huh?
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i'm hesitating which digicams to buy.
Canon Ixus 750?
Canon Ixus 700?
Panasonic Lumix DMC FX 9?
Konica Minolta Dimage X1?
Sony Cybershot DSC W7?
Nikon Coolpix P1?
Nikon Coolpix S3??
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8.12.05
Santa..** please grant my wishes can?? **
## 1 ## Digicam ## 2 ## $200 guess voucher (so i can buy my guess watch!!) ## 3 ## haircut ## 4 ## his happiness ## 5 ## happy family! ## 6 ## more clothes of course =)
&loved you so.
7.12.05
sitting at home now.. very bad cramps this morning when i was getting ready for work. medicine from last night is taking its effect also..making me extremely drowsy.. mum "encouraged" me to go back to sleep..before waking up to give them a ring about my absence.
work for the past days were ok.. the people there are damn slack! fancy strolling in 1/2 hour pass the working time. numerous times of toilet session and walking to the pantry! so i decided i shouldn't be so stupid doing at a $2000 pay work-pace since i'm only pay less than 1/2 of it. plus we don't have a decent permanent seat. quite horrible that is. having to be nomads for 1/2 a year..kinda paiseh lar. but overall is ok bah.gain the experience.not very tough once you get the hang of it.
that day even got to go habourfront centre to collect some documents.. damn highclass that place..but so hard to find! but aiyar..better than rotting in office..=)
yesterday he came over a while again.. my mum likes him! but he's so scared to see my dad. keep asking when's he coming back.lol. i miss him! saturday going out with his family for dinner.. i'm quite scared..just..feel awkward bah!
&loved you so.
6.12.05
i tried my best to reach "later" to my horror the office is in complete darkness at 8am! damn. have to take the creepy lift down and wander along the streets before i return at 820am.
sheesh. morning office is so quiet.. either on leave or seminar.. me? i'm waiting for lunch..=)
he's booking out today..
&loved you so.
5.12.05
i'm in the office now. gosh. this morning i reached at a hell time of 745am when my work supposed to start at only 830am!! went 7-11 to buy readers digest and READ (pass time)! i'm the 1st earthing to reach! gracious me! at the moment my eyes are seeing stars.. the figures are making me NUTS! boohoo.
&loved you so.
4.12.05
yesterday he came over for a short while. he was so SHY that he didn't dare to move an inch. my mum was amused by him though. it was a nice one afterall =)
i'm still sick. but the feeling at home is great. its been quite a while i've stayed home for the entire day already.
working curbs shopping addict. it helps to save money too!
the downtown east rollar coaster accident is horrible! gracious me..
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3.12.05
i'm heavily down with flu*blocked nose*sore throat*cough*fever
that happens the day before my 1st day of work. i still drag myself there nonetheless. overall wasn't too bad. 1st day did audit work. 2nd day suddenly i changed to accounts work and some admin stuff. conclusion. i wish i hadn't transfer to accounts! audit is much more easier for me. excel does all my work for me! i still remember how i explore excel when during sec1/2 we had our IT lessons. that's where i remember all those formulas n shortcuts =) but still..no more excel for me. myob myob and more myob. gosh. i'm damn paranoid that i entered the wrong stuff. then i keep going back about hundred entries back and redo again. such a chore! Accounts -- steady + meticulous + typewriter speed audit -- IT smart.. of course.. going out of office. i've no problem with accounts actually. but i'm too paranoid! keep worrying i did wrongly. sheesh..and my butt hurts from sitting down. toe got blister
plus i'm so ill. tuition starting the next hour.
i'm sounding so like a robot.
i'm so tired.
monday and tuesday will be just me alone. yh and elsie going grad night. SIGH.
now i know its still better to be a TAI TAI than to slog your life away earning just a few pennies.
and i suppose i can't meet him as well. i'm so sad! i miss him LOADS!! but i really need the rest desperately. wish i can recover soon and get out of hell asap.
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