ntu soci 3rd year x))
17th april 1987
5'7 tall
I don't tolerate incongruity
Music, Dancefloor makes me come alive
A world of self denial i live
embodiment of ice
YDesires.
canon ixus 970is or
fujifilm f100d
clothes
maintain GPA of 4.0 above
happiness
pretty skin
i took years to comprehend why people use vulgarities when they are pissed. but when i finally can accept the fact that occasionally people do speak vulgarities as it is currently a norm... i find it so hard to fathom why people like to use the word f-u-c-k in EVERY sentence they speak or type. as a noun and verb. for example. "FUCK.today suck. i met a fucking bitch. then i went to have dinner @ blah-blah which is fucking good. i just have fucking good taste isn't it. oh fuck.i realize i didn't bring my wallet."
then your whole conversation or blog entry will have that holy word.
SIGHHHHHH. i really can't understand why people can't speak properly for nuts. when you have so many words you can use..just look at the thickness of a dictionary! why restrict yourself to multi-use that holy word as a verb and noun. so what differentiate a person who went to university from a person who went to normal tech stream or ite???? at least i think the latter have more "variety" of nouns and verbs. (DUH.that's not the point obviously) oh well. that's why Singapore is its victim to its success. best example? look at the youths nowadays. no comments. uncouth.uncivilized.loud.rude.inconsiderate.stingy.selfish....despite the increase in educational level. like what for?
i'm glad to say that other than being slightly racist... *opps* i'm none of the above=)
&loved you so.
24.2.07
i'm a very dull person. for almost 7 years..my favourite radio channel is still 92.4 when people would avoid listening to"hypnotising" classical and orchestra music they are always my heavy dozes of "coffee" =)
then i read june's blog on phantom of the opera.. i was reminded that i tell myself that i'm getting the 120bucks seat to watch it.. then now..i can't bear to part with that amount for a ticket.. and its no point getting the cheapest seat if you really want to watch it live. esplanade back row circle seats just suck. your legs will get cramps from that puny squeezy space. and you can't see clearly. so i've decided not to go for it.. anyway the whole soundtrack is in my head for years. especially the grand instrumentation of the theme song /phantom of the opera, perfect vocal of /wishing you were somehow here again\ and lovely flute solo of /think of me\
oh.suddenly i wanna pick up violin.. but time is the main concerning factor.
its amazing how i love dancing and used to dance so much since young regardless hiphop, jpop, and how i wish when i grow up to take up international dance.. (no offence) but i still can't accept people who clubs. its just like smoking to me. its not cool at all? just another platform to get touchy, showoff, and act you're hot? like how the majority will say..awwwwwwww. what a boring life it is without partying, mambo! i will say...awwwwww just another bimbo nights out. but well...that's my own opinion and stereotype about clubbers.. i still get along well with my clubber friends.. and i don't ostracised them either..i don't go around labelling "hey that clubber" i have many many good friends who club too..i'm fine with it unless i find it gets way off.. so i can't imagine if "porn star" (someone in hss) is my good friend.. haha..that's a big IF.
when i'm not feeling too happy i start to blabber alot...... when i'm happy on the other hand i've nothing to talk about. yup
anyway i watched /protege\ today. thumbs up!!! Daniel Wu's acting is just superb! i think he can act better than that louis khoo. =x and that little girl is so CUTE! the new young actress not too bad..i don't know her name well..zhang jing chu?? overall.great show.one of the best of those drug related movies.
lastly..a question to ponder.. what's the most important quality in life?? 1)wealth 2)love (r/s, kinship, friendship..) 3)trust 4)happiness 5)freedom 6)others?
i'll pick 3)... because without 3) nothing would have existed..
&loved you so.
21.2.07
yesterday was a rotten day for me. everything turns out back since morning... does it mean i'll have bad luck for the entire year? sigh.i guess no one will end up crying during CNY except me. abcdexyz!
still have to prepare for tomorrow's tutorial.. finish up the assignment to hand up tomorrow.. looking forward to recess next week!
sian.Fri still must waste $5 on transport (whole semester will be about $60-70) to go for a pathetic less than an hour tutorial whether the lecturer just sit there and read textbook and the class just stare at one another...he is SMART to enforce stupid rules to make us sign every tutorial/lecture and says it comprise of 10% of the grade. SIGH typical kiasu singaporean like me will be so guai and don't even dare to miss a single lesson.shi bai right?
on a lighter note. i have to plan time for next week.. i've to set aside time for : 1)the countless postponed dates with people like Fu(while she's "busy" preparing her exams I HOPE!), Sally(chopchop important because we ought to meet when i was JC1*opps*), Yh(belated bday date), Kw(shop! blah blah blah and whatever! heh) 2)buffet outing with my soci buddies Bernice, Daryl a.k.a Huiling & Raymond (buffet to accomodate a big eater like me.hahah..its great that out of like 100 people..there are always friends you can depend on and spend your break time rotting in the library with => ) 3)catching up with my terrible+horrible school work..... (which will take up like 70% of the week) 4)(save the most most most important one for the last point) quality time with my special one...its been ages we've had a decent day out *loves*
&loved you so.
19.2.07
HAppy piggy year!!
just a very ordinary day for us.. went ahgong-ahma's house in the noon.. then off we went to GV Marina for movie /Just Follow Law\ its been like dinosaur years my parents and I have watched a movie together... more than 10 years!
a very typical satiricial movie you'll expect.. very funny.. and Fann Wong is how daring!! but plot, storyline, etc wise.. i think /I not stupid\ is way better =)
before the movie since we had some time.... it is photo taking time!
**Three of us =)**
**The best parents on earth!**
**Me and my dad **
&loved you so.
17.2.07
ever since this movie /A Moment to Remember\ launched.. it has remained my most favourite movie till now..... watching it again last night..seems to trickle more sadness within me..... and sobbing non stop till my eyes are so swollen now. Son Ye Jin and Jeong Woo Sun. what a perfect match....... one's sweet and dear..one's manly and exludes a tinge of charisma when he shows his affection for his wife...especially when he knew about his wife's Alzheimer's disease...and he cried.. how heart wrenching... this show makes you ponder the meaning of true love.... to live happily ever after?? to stay by one's side regardless sickness or death? even know that he/she will soon leave you...and you've to carry on living alone in the world? i guess... its the memory shared that counts..... a force that'll keep two souls bonded even seperated by distance or death.... a force that keep you going on....
&loved you so.
16.2.07
its been abcxyz months i've cut/treat my hair.. its like a pile of .....wheat?hay? think i'm balding too.whenever i brush my hair there's bound to be at least 1-2 strands stuck between my fingers.. i'm waiting for it to grow long.. long enough for me to have big waves..then i'll try lin xin ru's hair now..then i'll snip off everything to get queenie's hair. but i doubt i'll dare to try out them.
sigh.. my back hurts. no wonder..since i'm in front of the com.. stuck to the chair for don't know how many hours working on assignments that's never ending..
&loved you so.
15.2.07
firstly, i'm very happy for my dearest HJM for finding her littleboy.. guess this year must be the happiest vday for her these 20 years! then bernice got to meet ph, just in time to spend vday night together..
as for me.. i spend my vday with karl marx, max weber & hugill.. burn the night to do up presentation..even skipped part of hw111 lesson to do.. in the end london didn't get us to present because only 1 person in the class read the reading... wth lo..waste so much of my time!
please recover soon.. i'm so so so worried everyday.. plus my hectic schedule i don't have sufficient time for you.. i feel so guilty.. sad.. the only thing i can do is shower you with material gifts..write you cards and messages..
&loved you so.
14.2.07
Happy Valentine's Day =)
&loved you so.
12.2.07
"as we walk along the sandy beach..holding hands.. our hearts interlocking one another.. feeling a tinge of sweetness as the breeze gets by our cheeks..."
my simple wish..
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the test was a flush down the toilet bowl man.. but i'm just relieved its over. now back to the PA report..and HS203 presentation..
i'm very stressed..over everything.. problems everywhere..
someone reaching her twenties..looking in her thirties should not be crying every other day..
earringaddict @ my link on the page has really pretty earrings!!! SIGH but..nvm...
&loved you so.
11.2.07
stress to the max. tomorrow's HS202 quiz..i'm so not prepared..not even halfway through.. thursday's HS203 presentation.. writing of public admin's report.. resume/application letter assignment.. seriously i don't wish to stay back after 530 or come back on wed to do all these. sucks to the core..why is everything cramped into this week....
i need a breather. and i can't even have peace at home.
sigh.. why is everything going topsy turvy for me....
&loved you so.
9.2.07
school sucks. they like to pile work either before CNY and worse..right after CNY. we don't see that happening for hari raya/deepavali??? oh well.there's nothing to look forward for new year.. especially when stingy relatives are getting so hard for strategies to give lesser angbaos.. i'm always the first to be sacrificed. some will say. "AIYO you stand up already taller than me le..don't need la hor?" "cousin-cousin can save the formalities right?" "you still schooling?!?! i thought you're..................................................................30 -_-" by the way i've been commented that my age range from 27-34 lately.ever since last dec till now.. even the girls i hang out in school everyday "accidentally"(in a way..she says looking at me just strike her the idea) said things hinting i'm older... okay i've sidetrack..not saying i'm hurt that i look so old. of course i'm upset!but numbed already. but the main thing is..i can't stand stingy people. poor is one thing..but i hate people cracking brainless excuses to save money and be cheapo.i despise you! $#%$#%!
*things that should not be scrimped on* angbaos friend's birthday presents your bf/gf birthday/anni presents gifts for parents like how POOR everyone claim they are..when you still can buy clothes, eat blah blah blah...its not that hard saving up for a gift right?not like you have 365 best friends and asking you 365 days eat grass.especially its your close friends..i find it just pure shit to hear Uh i'm so sorry..i'm broke...so..blahblahblah...
and not that i care about your few pennies of angbao.. i just can't believe it my relatives actually came up with a LAW saying cousin-cousin don't need to give each other angbao regardless of age gap. all i know is..once you're married..you ought to give those who are still not married..even if that person is older than you. and giving out angbaos is accumulating deeds for yourself not others.. you can hide all you want during newyear.. i bet you'll be suay all your life.
i'm uber angsty..mainly because of those NIAO cousins i have. and money really tarnish people's relationship. yeah who doesn't want the money to be spend on your own?? i'll love to buy clothes, accessories, blah blah everyday instead too but i'm willing to cut down everyday.eat cheap and lesser (which is so hard for me NOW especially)...just to save up for DECENT presents for my parents, bf, close friends.. plus we're like already how old? can be considered semi-adults le..and you're still dodging on your primary school time kind of budget and gift... OKAY i'm in a ABCXYZ mood now. because i'm very particular about such things when it comes to money. its just a thin line between STINGY vs real broke. money problem really can make a great difference on our mental image of someone. that's why i try my best not to borrow $ from people because its a tendency that you happily take for granted you're few bucks richer..... but on the other hand..paying up can be a dread..and you drag..and drag......for days..months..and years.
ok enough.i've got a whole book to finish by sunday for monday's test. i'm only @ page 4 though.
&loved you so.
4.2.07
/Once in a Summer\ made me teared like mad.. not a fantastic story plot. but that's what korean soppy dramas are capable of doing this to me. The day of the month just chose to strike yesterday.. and i didn't get to enjoy my time to the fullest. no appetite.. but i was quite happy..=)
and i was tossing in bed the entire night only manage to take 40winks at around 6am
had to do a ridiculous economics assignment.. we're made to listen to a 1hr long mp3..with angmohs conversing about their viewpoints on social problems.i'm supposed to write what's interesting (NAH it made me dozed off before i was halfway through)..what's objectionable..what're the strength and weakness of apply economic method to study social problems (like i give a damn) plus reading a webpage on their comments and choose one to critic.. 1500 words.FAINTZ i can't even get pass 10 mins of the mp3 la..what the....
mummy's sick..accompany her to the doctor just now.. hugs.hope she recovers soon! sigh..and i can totally understand her for being moody and ranting at me.. feeling quite hurt but....i've got to understand..=)
pss2 finals tonight..i like the songs they are singing tonight! =)
AHHHhh.what a hectic semester.. and i've to even do work during CNY.
i can't wait for May to arrive..so that i can start to work! and SAVE =) save for treats for my 21st birthday
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