to love &to be loved <3

30.11.05

SONG+KELLY
MU
Newurbanmale
Queen Couture
Topshop
Dorothy Perkins
BeBe
FCUK
Guess
Che Che

my top favourites to hunt for clothes =)

&loved you so.

the school is crap.
i can't take for my friends.
and i wore that damn uniform when i don't even have to.
ARRGH.
ms fu is damn suay.
she can't get her stuff because of that *Beep*

GIANT!
you got your 7 flowers.
shouldn't you thank your grass sisters by uploading the photos!!
yes and you look the prettiest in those neoprints and photos!! happy?! =)

i really want to change my digicam.
i'm either selling to shops or unless any of my friends want to buy from me.
haha.
my digicam is in VERY GOOD CONDITION.
no scratches at all.
never drop before. as good as new.
i want to change because i want to upgrade to a better model =)

i'm so going to meet him later..*beams*
i'm looking forward to it..
because i may not have the chance to meet him this coming saturday due to my tuition and appointment at NYSS.
=(

i've a new shopping list.
yh save me!
and hey!! i don't have the "i-got-work-so-nvm" attitude!
because i really need clothes!!

some people just bring out a wrong feeling with the clothes they wear.
its no longer glam/sexy.. it becomes damn LC.

tomorrow's official workday!!
kind of excited..
but sad because i'm going to miss out loads of fun!!

haha..yc only got 8 people for that table for grad..if he can't find 2 more people he'll be eating muslim food!
what a stupid rule?!
i'm so happy i didn't go for grad.
i'll be saving at least 200 bucks man! haha..i'm not going even if yc willing to sponsor half of the ticket price!!

&loved you so.

29.11.05

no matter what..

i'm still keen on saving up for a present i want to buy so much for someone.

&loved you so.

28.11.05

i guess the best solution is to bury myself in work to forget all the troubles.
i feel suffocated.
i'm in the lousiest mood and feeling utterly depressed.
i chose to put on my smiles in the day.
god knows what i always do at night?
yes i hit thousand bucks just plain shopping.
why such madness could you fathom?
because i tried many ways..but..
none allows me to seek temporary solace even.

&loved you so.

27.11.05

i'm in a bad mood.
grumpy and sulky.
i'm pissed.

&loved you so.

25.11.05

hmm.ok.i know i'm not supposed to spend anymore (at least at the moment)..
but temptation is too great.
another 100 down.
in less than a week..almost 800bucks spent in total..
that's probably a record ever!
i swear this is the 1st..and probably the last.
unless my pay in future runs in $5000.

my nail colour is "flying carpet"..and i think its damn cool.
i know halloween's over..but i fell in love with this colour almost immediately!
poof.
have you any idea a manicure session at /dashing diva\ costs $65?? with pedicure it can run into hundreds? gracious!
i can get an embelished top at dorothy perkins you know!
i just love /voxy\..nice friendly staff there..=)
perhaps i already know what gift to get for emily!

2 days ago i bought my bag from /carlo rino\..its faulty. ok nevermind i brought it down the next day for an exchange..
the staff that day said that she'll call for a new piece to arrive the next working day ready for my collection.
when i went down today..the other staff gave me the exact one i returned back! wth. i felt like giving her a punch..furthermore the next one she gave me isn't new at all!! *jumps*
i swear i'm not going to buy a bag that's soooooo easily "spoilt"..$80 for something i've to go 3 times..definitely a nono.
but oh well..its not some bag taking to formal functions or what..so let it be! i know it can probably only last for at most half a year.

anyway helped yuhui bought her /topshop\ bangle since i've discount card..
something that i can never wear in my whole damn life.
but its nice nonetheless!
oh and you got to show me you glam glam prom dress too!!
i know its definitely nice because its purple!! and warehouse!!
actually i was kind of reluctant to give you that $50 voucher since i fancied something there too!
but by giving that to you..i'm able to curb down my spendings at least by 200.
so i should be saying thanks to you girl!

by the way..giant dye her hair on her own..
and its sooooooo nice.
i really think its down at some salon or something.
okay the colour's not that striking..just it looks quite natural and well done!
don't worry.i believe giant will be a pretty prom giant this coming friday!! *am i right?* both you and stupid must show me all your glam grad photos..try and make me jealous!! hah..

he's sleeping right now..he asked me to call him..
but i decided to not disturb his beauty sleep and let him rest more..
he's had only 2 hours of sleeping time this entire week.
tough on him.
pain for me.
his duty starts at 2am. =(

i'm starting work in less than a week's time!
i must enjoy all that i can..
i maybe taking up tuition on sats too.
sigh.
i guess after a month i'll be a skinny dehydrated panda.

boohoo.

&loved you so.

why should i bother when people don't give any hoots about you.

definition of friends seem doubtful to me.
it always has been.
perhaps till now no one can change my opinion.
ok.maybe once in a while..a couple of you.

its cold out there.

he's off to jurong again.i miss him.

at the moment 600-700 bucks shopping is getting real bad.
maybe i'll stop for a few days.
yey i think i should.

&loved you so.

24.11.05

another $170 on clothes
$50 heels
$40 accessories
xmas cards!

another sinful day.
but its coming to an end soon!

$40 on bodyshop again..but this time round is for him.. =)

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dinner at sakae..almost a month without that i'm missing it!!
and its great to see him smile ^-^

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i swear to treat mummy to the best things on earth when i get my pay!!
daddy too!!
him too!! =)

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my days are all jammed before official work starts!
other than tuesday..ok that's my "rest" day!! i need that desperately.

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cheers.i'm in smiles.

&loved you so.

23.11.05

i hate cold weathers.
i'm so cold.

yey! fun doing online browsing with miss ho.
we must be pro.
we love madrid and gizeh.hah.

i'm starting work in a wk's time!
so many people i've yet to meet up with.

he's having a super tough/tiring time now.
i wish i could do something to help~

&loved you so.

22.11.05

$200 --> clothes
$80 --> bag
$40 --> slip-on heels
$13 --> hair accessory

i feel so utterly sinful.
yet the clothes are far away from what i need to fill up my waredrobe.

i still ordered a bag online that day..have yet to collect it at meritus mandarin.
oh its just something cheap. $30. but its damn nice. at least..to me..enough for shopping =)

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1st dec is my first official working day.
i'll joining yuhui for that month before i'm off to another department.
boohoo.on my very very own.
wonder if i can meet any nice colleagues there?
hope there are some around my age one..
if not got communication barrier man.

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he's at jurong island..
guess its quite tiring there..
i'm worried!
hope he's fine..
i miss him =(

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i want to head down to fareast for some cheap deals.
i want a pair of pumps.must be comfortable.

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&loved you so.

21.11.05

watched /a moment to remember\ yesterday on dvd..
gosh..i can bearly hold my tears..
heart wrenching!

upon realisation..
i'm actually more of a pink girl *shakes head..ponders..i thought i love red and black more?*
now even my handphone is pink..
come to think of it..pink is quite a nice colour..
if you don't overly-ha-pink.

today's a self-proclaimed rest day at home for me..
tv.vcd.eat.

anyone recommend me some nice shoe stores..
i combed marina, raffles, suntec, millenia walk..but i can't find any i fancy!

i'm desperate for BeBe's peach skirt.
i've been out for 3 days but no shopping is done!

the fact is now..
i got the money..
ready for lotsa of shopping to be done..
but nothing catches my eye!
*faints*

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i like my new blogskin.
simple, plain, soothing colour..

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call to fellow tj people *shrugs*
anyone has any idea that is it compulsory to go back on 30 Nov at 9am to collect our testimonials or something..??
i thought its supposed to be a mail-to-us thing!

corrections.
seems that whole world knows its a MUST to go back already.
wth.

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if i'm to start work in dec..means there'll be so little time for me to go out!
meet up with friends!
gosh..then i'll need to draw up a TIMETABLE *goodness*
but the money part is luring me..*grins*
weekends will be out..reserved for parents and him.
i'm calling to confirm later!

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hall of fame..
my precious gems i found in TJ...
gem A: khine wa (not really counted since i knew her since dhs times)
gem B: miss fu
gem C: laolee!
gem D: june
ohohoh..and not to forget..
gem E: giant! (it was tj that brought us together isn't it! anyway hang in there okay!! though the thought of people are enjoying and you're mugging your ass off..perhaps you'll get a decent grade for your dearest biology!! don't fred..thursday will come veryvery soon!)

probably going to meet up for a drink with karen, emily too!
miss ho as well!

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i'm having 2nd thoughts to cutting my hair. maybe next year.
i'm beginning to love my hair

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whoots.
net dwellers are idiotic.
they spend their time flaming other people's blog.
gracious me!
they're in love with reading things that they hate!
what an irony man.

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we went to get his longing dvd player at giant..
i think its sleek and nice!
hope he likes it! =)
poor him..lost his army-identity-card or something..have to make police report and stuff..
then what penalty also.. =(

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a great online shopping webby

&loved you so.

20.11.05

/just like heaven\ charming characters make beautiful music together.
don't you agree?
light romance comedy.
hilarious.
predictable ending.
but it just never fail to make me cry towards the end..(unstoppable)
it was just so sweet,bitter,touching..
fairytale love.

but its quite peculiar in some scenes..
for example..
nobody is able to see elizabeth except david and one of her niece.
BUT..the other niece's eyes follows her as she walked away!!
hmm..another one is david's slutty neighbour..
she threw her clothes and lingeries out of the room to lure david.
when david and elizabeth walked there..the door was shut.

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candy empire rocks!
the moment i stepped in..
i seem to be just like any other 3-year-old little girl..
getting overwhelmed by all the yummyyummy!!
just wished i could sweep everything into my shopping cart rightaway!!

swensons at marina was great.
at least i'm free from untamed runabout kids that goes screeching into your ears.

wonderful day with him =)

&loved you so.

19.11.05

my 1st official outing after A's.

went out with parents to eat lunch..
get a new 7610 casing at $55 (originally priced at $88..which i don't believe!)
spent $76++ at Body Shop (my mum claims to be a waste of $)
got my copy of Female finally (the skirts n heels are enticing me)
silly me got "hypnotized" again by the salesgirl..and i spent $50 on accessories.
went ntuc to stock up our tidbits-only-cabinet!another half a hundred gone.

went home for a bathe..
before heading down to tampines to meet him!
we ate at yoshi..went his house..so that i can catch /wu chu cai hong\!!
his dad's co. got a 200buck voucher at some seafood place..
i got invited by his mum!! *smiles*
oh..and i received the pretty little ring from him! i think its just..NICE =) i'm so scared of dirtying it.
and the wonka chocolates taste great..thanks dear..

gracious me.
i've lined up so many activities..but i may have to work in dec!
*dilemma*!!

i'm going out later!!
yippee.

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i'm quite upset over the fact that someone always try to show off how close she is to one of my close friends.
i'm quite sad whenever i hear about them enjoying themselves or any dates.

some will know who i'm refering to..

ahhhh..
maybe its a signal asking me to retreat?
but i'm really unhappy with that someone..whenever i retrace back everything she did to me..and now..
arrgh.

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&loved you so.

17.11.05

human geog paper wasn't that easy. DRQ was a killer. oh well..its already over.

all i know now is..i miss him alot.

and i'm happy i'm out of the school.

full stop.

&loved you so.

16.11.05

to people out there who are "guilty" of downloading mp3s online still..
please stop immediately!
the record industry association people are sending sms-es to many of us to serve as 1st warning..
and they are coming down pretty harsh on offenders regardless of your age..
so yar..many university students have been fined..
its quite easy to track us down once we log into the net..
our servers on IRC are also being caught..
baidu.com isn't serving anymore due to copyright..
we don't want to be fine for nuts right? =)

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she may once be a soft porn star.
but i admire her bravery in admitting her mistake.
she's just a gorgeous stunning beautiful woman..
with soft features and exotic face..(magnetic full lipped sexuality and wide mouth, etc)
compare with zhang zi yi..
who put up airs..and her face is just another common thing you can find in china's modelling industry..
she's a beau that would eventually make a big name in Hollywood.
to me she's bubbly, precocious and..real.

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tomorrow's the day.

&loved you so.

14.11.05

he's probably the sweetest thing on earth.
he got a new pair of rings for us.
(his was like *ancient-looking* ever since he got back from brunei training)
he got a WONKA chocolate for me.
i didn't even know that chocolate exist in the 1st place!
he loves chocolates like mad and he's keeping it for me =)
as a result he got himself penniless..
but my night was definitely filled with glee seeing his heart-melting sms-es.
*smiles*

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JuRen: you better start mugging and stop watching VCDs!! ai dong gua is commanding you to listen to her!! lol. though i'm doing that myself!! heh bad example. but you not guai there'll be no post celebration for you! hah.

Miss Ho: we're probably working under the same firm but different department!!! still..we'll be sick of each other -- going to and fro work together, having lunch every weekday!!
as for tues..i won't be going with you and your mum..since we'll be meeting different individuals!! and we need work outfits! that's something to work on.

Miss Fu: i'm hesitant about my haircut already! my mum keep telling me tales about how awful and monstrous i'll be looking and how i'll get dumped for that hairstyle *sobs* but still..i'm still going! probably admiring the current hair for another few weeks. hope to drop down to see two Reds endorsors on mon!!

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i've infinite items on my immediate shopping list.
handphone, shoes, suede/pumps, slippers, handbag is a must have!!
cfm+chop already.
plus some new pieces of tops,skirts,jeans...
i'll be ''poker" den ever.

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&loved you so.

13.11.05

its a lazy sunday.
wakeup.breakfast.sleep.lunch.bathe.sleep.here.

it seems to be A's is over already!
human geography is such a wet blanket yar?

intensive post A's planning is still coming along smoothly!
yesterday i was quite happy 'coz Emily finally replied.i thought she dao-ed me or something.
oh!perhaps giant belated birthday celebration will be one of the priority =)
have to work that out with my future working partner Ms Ho.
then i've to call upon my longer-than-never-met bestie Sally the babe!
not to forget the already cfm+chop KBOX outing with my shit sister~!
i almost forgot something! a small surprise for my beloved sq0205 sometime in dec.
eh..the important "100 slots" reserved with Ms Fu my coffee sista.
probably meeting up one day with my lower sec table mate/bitching partner TYS
and dar yaqi.
turning up for dearest Swo concert and dhssb grad.

lastly..infinite dates with my dearest!!
shopping + piggying out with mummy!!!
hope i didn't miss out anyone!
i think there's more to come!
i'm excited.

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he's out shopping while me stuck home.
boo.
=x
but i miss him still.

&loved you so.

Your EQ is

147
50 or less: Thanks for answering honestly. Now get yourself a shrink, quick!
51-70: When it comes to understanding human emotions, you'd have better luck understanding Chinese.
71-90: You've got more emotional intelligence than the average frat boy. Barely.
91-110: You're average. It's easy to predict how you'll react to things. But anyone could have guessed that.
111-130: You usually have it going on emotionally, but roadblocks tend to land you on your butt.
131-150: You are remarkable when it comes to relating with others. Only the biggest losers get under your skin.
150+: Two possibilities - you've either out "Dr. Phil-ed" Dr. Phil... or you're a dirty liar.

What's Your EQ (Emotional Intelligence Quotient)?

&loved you so.

12.11.05

the company is probably rejecting me due to my fickle-minded-ness.

i think i just screwed up everything at the moment.
i'm feeling so vexed.

i slacked + slept the whole of yesterday till this morning.

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but i'm still feeling so tired.
mentality perhaps.

i'm just a little girl wishing to be leading a simple life.
why is that so hard even?

all along i tried playing saint.
i gave in to everything.

but allow my dreams to float further and further away from me.

i wish..i wish..

guess it'll probably not come true..

&loved you so.

11.11.05

click this
its quite an interesting article here..and i think its written quite well!

click this
its on dawn yeo AGAIN. i'm not into the content. but i'm turned off by the reporter's language standard.

click this
done by someone to "Verify" the fact that dawn yeo did a face job.
oh well..i think the difference for the before and after is damn drastic.
but i've seen her in real. quite a barbie. but her eyes are definitely quite plastic-looking (too perfect to be true?)

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self-liberation!!
gp was ok-ok lar.
i did the "there is no such thing as luck.people determine their own lives" question.
i think paper 2 was very tricky.
easy passage hard questions.

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i just remembered something i hate alot.
i hate people hitting me on the head.
i think its very very rude. (of course damn pain lar)
so far there are 2 people very fond of doing that.
but i'm glad they are from dhs.
which means they aren't in my life anymore =)

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i want my CCC C6
i'm not lamenting or blaming anyone.
given this fact can god be lenient to me and grant me the entrance to university?

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i'm now going to start with my systematic planning scheme for the coming nov/dec holidays after 17thnov! :)

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yes.and i miss him hell lots.
just have to bear with it another week.
*chants...it'll be fast...fast..fast...chants..*

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&loved you so.

10.11.05

one can be imbecile!
arrgh.
i'm so irritated by *beep*

i think its a bad omen (for me) to see your subject tutor (the paper you're taking the next moment) !!
reason is..yesterday i saw Ms Jae --> physical geog was bad
i study climate for essay and it turned out to be the hardest. guess i'm the only idiot who did that question. the rocks and landform one is super easy!!
today i saw Mr Ang --> math paper 2 was the ultimate killer
like half the paper can't do (with lots of blank).

heard alot people cried in the hall?
ahh..i almost almost did. but i kept telling myself it looks stupid to cry in public.
sigh.

some people are just so smittened in their own dream world.
for goodness sake.
i can't stand it and it irks me off.
superficial self-centered insensitive hypocrtical
a whole list to add on.

sigh.
i know my long break is being discounted of its *fun* value already.
A's.

&loved you so.

6.11.05

tomorrow's the big day.actually it has already started on 31st oct.but since we were given such a "long" 1 week break..it gives me a feel i'm moving towards holidays instead.

oh well..yes.
chinese s paper.
god knows why am i still taking this when i can't even handle the other subjects..even beyond a simple D/C??
just wasting time? hah..since i won't be taking chinese after this..
and this paper don't need to be studied at all..
how nice if all our papers are like that huh?

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read the following extract from a blog i read everyday..
she just got attached with someone..
don't you think its so sweet?

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He does unorthodox things that are really romantic.
Like buying roses and hand painting them black on our goth outing for me.
Like snorting onions so that he could cry with me when i was sad.
Like editing my blogs with funny italic parts because I suck at writing.
Like not taking a shower for a week so that no girls will want to hang out with him while my parents are here. I swear he stinks so bad.
Like taking 2 hours to find a perfect pebble on the beach we were on for me. Its cute and it makes a pretty rattling sound when i shake it.
Because an animal found it first and hid inside, and then he killed it but couldn't get it's shell out. Haha.
Like giving me a ride to school every morning.
Like doodling my name on all his notebooks because he thinks of me all the time during class.
Like being soooo proud that he rejected girls that throw themselves at him because he only wants me.
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that's every girl's dream..
seem so real..yet so like a fairy tale...

if one day a delivery man send a big bouquet of flowers to your doorstep..or workplace..
what will be your response??

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i'm so fearful of my upcoming cramps now.
i don't know when is it..but the thought of it is just so scary..
no amount of painkillers can help me at all..
if it comes about in a middle of a paper i'm dead.

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currently in a very low mood..
can anyone tell me why reality always seem so far fetched from a dream....
sigh.
i didn't sleep a wink last night..
was quite affected by something..

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&loved you so.

4.11.05

i wrote an essay about money vs life. (for my lep)
my arguement??
people will do anything for money.
c'mon.
its just so silly indulging in your world of fantasy telling people..
health is more important!
kinship is more important!
nonsense.
no money for treatment, healthcare, medicine, proper food...
how are you going to be healthy?
when you are dying of hunger, thirst,..
you can even eat up your own siblings!
that's life.
we have a choice of "i want to be as slim as (for eg.) jessica alba!!"
then you start on your diet strike.
while people struggling for survival just scamper for any THINGS that can be chewed n swallowed to ease their hunger.

i know i'm playing with my marks by being quite one sided in my essay..
but..i can't go against my conscience writing things i don't even agree with!!
pooffff.

but i doubt i'll get a decent grade.
paper 1 was tough.
basically there's one 8 mark gu wen give away question that we were tested for like 3 times already.
being the smart alec myself..i happily thought we won't get it again so i didn't bother revising that gu wen at all.
it came out.
the /duan ping\ --something like an AQ??
on singapore idols?? i can't get the main argument in the passage given.
the compre..was bad..very contradictory..especially my own answer..
the last part was the best one.
i've never seen the words before.
paper 2 was relatively easy..(to those who've studied and memorised very well)
since i only revised once for every topic..
i practically dumped in whatever i remembered for that topic..
totally not in chronological order or what.

it'll be so thankful if i managed to get a C/D?
imagine competing with the chinese pros in HCJC and NYJC.

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quite unproductive these few days..
i could sense some signals telling me i'm getting sick soon.
that's the case whenever i get my period.
my cramps are the ultimate killer for me..
can send me rolling on the floor and tearing..
maybe even faint halfway thinking that i've fallen asleep.
arrgh..
please be merciful to me..
i can't afford to screw up my already going-to-be-screwed-up exams.

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met him yesterday for dinner..
he's getting sick too.
poor boy! hope he takes his medicine and sleep early!!
no more late nights.
no more chocolates!
drink more plain water!
don't make me worry for you okay? =)

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i need a miracle.
i'm barely halfway through the race.

&loved you so.