to love &to be loved <3

24.5.05

dear will b away for outfield camp again frm today till sat..
poor him..tough training..
hope everithing will b going fine for him!
hope days pass faster oso..
missing him ...
pop on 1st june..
sergeant liao lor..=)

went to "bi4 feng1 tang2" at century square wif parents on sunday..
k..at 1st thot e place was onli so so..
coz it was quite empty lar..
even soup restaurant got more ppl..
so yar..juz to avoid e crowd we went there..
n i realised..dey got pretty yummy food!
n i tink its beta den jade restaurant..
i liked e pickles!! *ah char*
dey got my salted pepper sotong fried So "Yummmmmmyly"!!
their crispy chicken was gd!
everithing everithing was so nice!
juz tt..
e no. of waiters/waitresses shudders u..
or rather irritate u!
too mani!
n dey keep walking bout staring at ur table making u feel so uneasy..

ystd dear's parents went thailand..
so yar..he's happy in e sense he got e car all to himself..
so everiwhr we go he drives =)
which is a nice thing coz we save our cab fares..
realise we always take cab when we'r out..
hmm..so yar..nth much..
but was juz a v v happy day for me..
wish for everiday to b liddat!
gee..b4 i went home..he drove me to downtown east..
pei him eat..
den bot a cake for mummy /total addiction\..damn chocolatey!
damn nice lar!
from emicakes..
den got him a small mango plus another chocolate cake for him!!

looking fwd to seeing dear on sun!

today's sucha slack day.can't stand it.
oh n i kena dodgeball lar!230 to 500!?!?!
wth..
arrgh.in caps ball oso?
so yar.i'm juz so onli going for one.

hjm!!
u so needed update more bout urself to me yar?!
=)

whoooo..
n junxian got tonnes of admirers~~~~
mesmerised by his bball skillss.
lala..
but to b frank..
u'r realli..
GOOD! (^-^)

currently listening to...*ai shi shen hua*
damn nice!

&loved you so.

21.5.05

anw..morning i juz "obediently" went for e lep open house thing..
y shud i!!?
coz i got so irk off by one bloody so called "junior" (coz frm today onwards i've taken tt idiot's face n name outta my world)
so i shan tok bout it animore.
but on e otherhand..today made my perception towards a "she" change for e better.
she's actualli quite a nice person..=)

yepx..after tt went to meet dear..
nth much..
juz a happy happy day..
its a nice feeling to feel so slack!!
like u go home..u dun need worry bout tmr got wad test wad test..
so i muz cherish e slack time i'm hafing now..=)

marie was asking me to pei her sign up for relieve dance sub-instructors for odyssey (see how money minded marie is? oppx*)--obviously u get paid for signing up..
but 1stly..training clashes wif JCT.
2ndly..i've gone rusty n i'm not v v v sure i wana go coz i'll prob sia suay myself..at least marie's still in touch wif dancing..while me..i hafen been into e correct attire n shoes since dunno when!!

juz suddenly feel like watching e lindy hop..
dey r gd!

oh yeah..back to e topic..
*dance*
my pri sch cca was Chinese dance!!
lol..
meaning..i'm v v v flexible back den!!
coz chi dance requires "bending here n there".
rather horrible to tink back now..
haha..n i was freaked out by one of e stuns when e teacher ask me to do one fine day..
e next day onwards i juz quit!
n i juz endulge in dearest netball..n no more dancing!

sec sch..nth much oso..
besides dancing for our band grad..
den outside sch..
onli had modern jazz n hiphop.

den after o's i suddenly haf liking for rhumba n jive!
dun ask me y!
i juz love dem!
den tried 2 days of tango..
n change my perception of tango..
n tt it isn't juz twisting ur heads wif ur partner n biting a stalk of rose wif ur teeth.

aH!!
i so miss dancing.
n being quite anti clubbing..
i wud resort to e cheap alternatives..
by dancing to my cds at home myself.
haha..tt is provided when i'm in a gd mood.
i mean..
y pay to get urself squeezed..
n meet tonnes of disgusting personalities.

k enuff of tt....
i'm juz bored.
i'm alr used to e slack days now.
pls god..
dun let them pass so fast ok??

btw..
ystd match was not bad..
thou not one of e best played ones i've watched..
but it wud b in e top 10 exciting ones i've watched.
n now hjm's officially worldwide known as mvp taitai.
n she's gleeful bout it.

&loved you so.

15.5.05

many great movies haf yet to b shown!!
n it has to b after june hols..
which means..
i can't possibly see em due to e freaking jct prelims n A's.
ARRGh.

*fantastic four
*last quarter
*apres vous
*saving face
*madagascar
*n e list goes on!

funny weather.

hmmmmm..n i luv u more n more as days pass =)
thx for all u've given me dear!
gee..u muz b happy getting ur ipod mini..
hmm..gess u still wan a psp!!
ur speakers..
*silly boy* every moment is juz happy wif u..

&loved you so.

/amityville horror\..i do believe such incidents happen..
i do believe in inner voices..
n its definitely a show worthed watching..
but somehow..its an incompetent retread of the equally inane 1970s incident..
many of e details weren't exactly into depth..
e part tt links back to e exact 1974 incident will b prob e scene whr george get behind e walls in e basement..
i wud realli wana see e original film..
p/s:e cruelty george posed on billy wasn't as intense as i've thot!!
(e wood chopping scene)
ppl shud also watch /The Texas Chainsaw Massacre\ if u'r realli into horror films..dis one i believe is a beta one..or /dawn of e dead\..
/saw\!!not realli horror..but damn suspense chasing..n highly intellectual film. -_- coz i dun realli uds till days after pondering.

/house of wax\is damn grotesque!
but its amusing seeing those movie posters ard..
showcasing paris hilton instead of the house of wax..?!
u noe e hilton is blue green hue dripping wif gooey wax..i juz feel tt dey r making fun of her!!like somehow..link wif e sex tape of her n her ex tt made her so famous?!
k tt's outta point..
*but i personally quite like hilton..
coz she's sucha poise refine sexy goddess!!
u shud haf seen her fantastic OH MY GAWD damn hot figure in e show..
e part whr's she(paige) is trying to haf sex wif blake..
e sex foreplay..erhem..is juz e main attraction to guys i gess?! haha
n not to forget running for her life in juz her undies..
BUT!!!!i totalli disagree ppl for claiming hilton as a pancake butt porno star.
coz she's realli got e looks n appeal.
n i hate e show for its parody against hilton..
hmmm...wonders if she's realli so gullible to not notice tt her role is v humilating to her..

ok..e show is a rather gd horror film (coz it totalli gross me out.YUCKS)..
but its abit stupid to spend more den half e film revolving round e 6 ppl..
before e real horror starts.
carly in e show...(Elisha Cuthbert) is v v v pretty..
k..dis show makes me noe of a big celeb chiobu besides hilton.
act..comparatively..elisha looks more outstanding besides hilton in e show..
Chad Michael Murray!! girls eyecandy..starred as Nick in e show..
i dun realli uds e bad twin part..*arrgh.forget it*
e most magnificant one wud b whr e whole house of e wax starts melting n carly n nick made their escape..

gorey film!
gosh..
e wax sculptures turn me off.
nausea!
gif me a 2nd thot whether i eva wana stepped into ani WAX museum in future man.

so dis entry is prob..a horror review.
even thou house of e wax is not a v gd horror film.
it juz sends chills up my spine.
feeling v v sick after e show.
n i din make a sound during e show.
so yar.can infer tt e extend of @#%$@%$@E is v xtreme.

&loved you so.

11.5.05

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to obedience and warmth.

In love, you feel the most alive when your partner is patient and never willing to give up on you.

You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic.

Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred.

In this moment, you think of love as commitment. Love only works when both people are totally devoted.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

pretty accurate for me...like..90++%?
quite a nice quiz i wud recommend..

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nth special in sch..
wasted time staying for a boring long tok which i hesitated to pon (n i shun haf!!)
math test wasn't any gd (as usual??)..onli managed to solve e proving qns wif ease..e others..-argh-
all along i hadn't much gd impression on tj band (i'm sorri if i offend anione)..but yar..thou i wasn't there for ur syf..i believe in ur TJ magic..not a miracle..but its e hardwork tt work wonders..
n sore losers r e ultimate losers (u guyx shud noe hu i refering)..
stuck ups r owaes stuck ups.
n..
i'm still bothered wif __
dunno..beginning to feel uneasy.
juz feel..e attitude towards ppl is soo bad..
tt sometimes even as an onlooker i feel e hurt.
sensitive?
maybe..

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2 days of outfield camp for dear..
2 days w/o msges *shrugs*
i miss u..

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craving for gd food suddenly..
soft.shell.crab.
dim.sum.
olio.dome.coffee.
long.island.
tcc.yummies.
tony.rama.baby.back.ribs.
butter.prawns.
shark.fins.
nydc.desserts.
balaclava..a nice hangout.
Sizzler.Steak.Seafood.Salad.Restaurant. a place not to b missed by food lovers :D

which means i'm in for a rush on sat.

&loved you so.

7.5.05

how would u feel..
if someone claims she's ur gd fren..
yet e kinda attitude she gives u is so diff from others..?
owaes ans in an assertive tone?
keeps opposing wad u say?
keeps insisting her say n views r all right?
ur views ur taste r all "low class" whereas she's e ultimate one wif e perfect ans n taste..?
saying things w/o considering ur own feelings?
lastly..her actions doesn't show tt at least u r a human in her eyes..?

u juz feel like a piece of shit to her..
n it is sucha agony to talk..
coz wad comes out of ur mouth is dung..
wad is said from others r so true..
when sometimes..both person r saying e exact same thing..e reaction u get is so xtreme?
u feel e urge to voice ur sorrows..
but somehow u see no point doing it..
coz u wonder..if things r to b said so forthly..
do u consider tt person to realli care bout how u feel..or juz taking everithing for granted..??
unknowingly..everi words n actions seems to make u so small..
many a times..u noe urself tt dis is correct..
but to gif in to dis person..
u hafta agree to her..
not coz u can't b bothered to correct her..
but u dread e type of ans she will return back to u..
which do hurt u so much.

sometimes little things ppl do can make a diff in u..
like a smile or a word frm someone can brighten up ur day..
yet on e other hand..
sometimes little things ppl do can make a diff in u..
which is hurting u unknowingly..

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dear..juz wana say a big sorri to wad happen ystd..
n definitely..everithing of u is perfect to me..coz i accept for hu u r..ur flaws..ur flairs..
u'r e light of my life..
n u'll always b..

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ystd lu yuan's performance a bf of our klazmate ran to e stage to gif her a bouquet of flowers..of coz..e girl's gleeful..n i'm happy for her..n happy to see some scenes occur..juz plain swt..i wasn't jealous..neither envy..coz i've one hu loves n cares for me so much..there's no reason i shud ask for more..i'm juz purely happy for dem.

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2 best frenz happen to haf e same bday together..
both were looking fwd to their mini celebrations..
but wad matters more is e amt of effort each of dem put in the other's present..
not realli bout e amt of $..
but knowing each other's likes n a few pieces of paper do make a big diff.

i used to get rather meaningful gifts frm ppl on my bday..
but as i grow older..i dun haf such experience animore..
tink e last meaningful ones i got from ppl were e time when i'm still in band..
some little stuff from juniors n frenz..

thus when i thot bout it myself..
i wonder..when will b e next time i'll eva get things tt will touched me..
*of coz..there's owaes my dear hu constantly does swt things for me..*

&loved you so.

1.5.05

ystd went to watch xXx2-the next level..
AWESOME!
the special effect..
the cool explosion scenes n stuff..the ^oh-my-gawd-he's gonna die-e-next-min^ kinda stunts..

darius stone *ICE-CUBE's name in e show* lookz hilarious in a way..dun ask me y..but he juz looks corny..esp a part he says xXx (a name given to him) sounds more of a porno star!
my fave part is whr he gets to race on a damn car tt's soooo pretty sud against e bullet train..n oso his prison escape..
his ex gf in tt show in pretty for a black in some way..
n gosh..her *Erhem* is sooooooo... u noe wad i mean.

we bot popcorn into e movie..
i was e one holding it..
i tink i let out a rather "strong" breath..
a few flew out of e cup..
i found it so funny n i start "vibrating" (as usual)
n all of e spill onto e floor.
*maluating*

dear's broke.
but he still bot me something which made me *happy*..
wonderful day..coz i've him wif me =)
juz wonder y wkends tend to pass so fast..
kinda sad..
v sad.
i hate wkdays.
sch.hw.studies.tests.n....everithing.
look fwd to fri..to him..=)

my wkends r usually more of slacking den study....
juz like to hug e pillow he gave me..n i'll juz fall asleep..
hmm..
i used to haf countless criterias for a dream guy to come..
tall.handsome.charming.sporty-which is a soccer guy.or someone hu plays e trumpet damn zai+romantically.blahblahblah e list goes on..
but it always turn out..
my boy is no more a fantasy..
thou not v much of e prisch-daydream kind of dream guy i used to haf..
but to me he's perfect.
absolutely.

lynn was asking if i was free to join dem for dance prac..
haha.obviously no!
but yar..i miss dancing..definitely..
for me..dancing can elevate all e troubles..
rather contradicting..
in reality now i juz wana b a nobody..
but if dancing..
being in e limelight..e feeling is great..
u wun noe unless u r in it..
e praises u cheers..is wad made u smile..
but back to reality..
beat-me-to-death i oso dowan anione notice me.

wasn't a pleasant nite ystd at home..
but dear's e one hu bring me smiles once again..
*hugs*
i'll nv noe wad's life w/o u.

juz find it tiresome toking to someone if he/she demands wad he/she says is absolute n u muz agree fully..n anithing u says or ur judgement is atrocity.
den wad's e pt of asking?
arrgh.
nvm.

&loved you so.