ntu soci 3rd year x))
17th april 1987
5'7 tall
I don't tolerate incongruity
Music, Dancefloor makes me come alive
A world of self denial i live
embodiment of ice
YDesires.
canon ixus 970is or
fujifilm f100d
clothes
maintain GPA of 4.0 above
happiness
pretty skin
my throat hurts. as my stomach goes rumbling in the night.. i can't munch on my favourite tidbits..my chocolate wafer sticks.. that's very sad that i've to sleep with a noisy stomach.. =(
thinkin of all the yummies make me drool *mos burger's corn soup *cafe cartel's seafood pasta *bi feng tang's crispy chicken *long john's clam chowder *cereal prawns *shark fin's soup *BBQ seafood *hiagen diaz's rum n raisin *soft shell crab, chilly crab, butter crab, CRABS! *yummy cakes, pastries, etc etc etc
SIGH. my throat hurts like hell even just by chanting all these delicacies..and swallowing saliva.. =(
&loved you so.
28.3.07
counting down.. to the end of all assignments/presentations/tests.. to the end of exams.. :)
i want sprees..buffets..treats.. enjoy my 3 months!
new new new TV at my doorstep now..yippee!! though having some arguments about a dent on the screen side panel.....
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Bernice birthday was on Sunday.. she and her bf went to a place call /RICE BOWL\ and she keep laughing say i should go because it suits me.. -_- (free flow of plain rice..hrmph..*) then her bf bought her a Guess bag around 180+.. those "basket" kind.. like beach bag.. she use one time in school then the weaved stuff starts to peel off~ so we suggest she keep it in her house for exhibition purpose. Ahaha.
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my boy's sick. my boy's working so hard. my boy's sleeping so little... i don't feel good at all.. :(
&loved you so.
25.3.07
someone i know went into MSU2007 finals. seriously i don't feel good. because i don't really like her. and..i still can't fathom what's so special about her.
my PA essay is at least half way done..and i shall leave it to wed to complete it.. sigh.why am i always doing last minute work? and i just finished "highlighting" the 6 chapters for test tomorrow.. note: HIGHLIGHT only. nothing really went in. now in the process or re-reading and capture the main points. during the break in school tomorrow then prepare for religion presentation.. sian. yesterday had flu. today my eye is like..i don't know how to describe...like some chili got into your eyes like that..very uncomfortable..and watery.. i want to sleep BADLY. school sucks. holidays please? i don't even know if i can work alright..i need the damn $
&loved you so.
something i kup from another site. amuses me while i'm not even half way through my essay..
&loved you so.
pardon the emo me.
sigh. i'm fine. i'm just stressed up with school work i guess.
-------------------------------------------- watch the sunrise with me... watch the starry night sky with me.. walk aimlessly around the world with me.. remember the 'TTUF' that you hooked pinkies for..
how i wish..
&loved you so.
24.3.07
repeat after me.
Eileen is a fucking bitch. Eileen is a fucking loser. Eileen is the lousiest piece of fucking shit on earth. Eileen is the most fucking girl I've ever seen.
Nice right. presenting to you...the fucking cheer.
I've said this word probably less than 10 times in my whole damn life. and here I'm saying it for 5 times.
because I'm so fucking HAPPY.
since I'm so fucked up. why should I bother about myself and how I feel even?
&loved you so.
21.3.07
i only did one chapter of Berg today. (5 more chapters left till next monday) quite distracted..typical procrastinator! keep thinking about the 6 chapters of Berg for monday's test, religion presentation next tues and PA assignment next thurs.. tomorrow must reach school at 930 for LAST minute preparation of presentation thanks to my "lovely" group. that means..i've to wake up at 530. HOW WONDERFUL. plus plus plus prof london got to surprise me buy having a last minute online assignment due tomorrow 9am.which means..i've to finish it by tonight..
tell me about it. i'm super duper overloaded.
i really can't wait for holidays.
and gracious me my beloved only form of entertainment died out on me yesterday. (TV) dad is still contemplating whether to buy a new plasma tv.. oh well..seriously i've no qualms over what kind of tv i'm watching.. as long i can see the images..i can hear the speeches.. i'm fine! i think saving up for my laptop is more crucial now.. because my dearest computer seems like its going to pass away silently very soon. waiting for AY07/08 orientation see whether school got nice promotion for MAC black. if not i'll get it outside..since outside i can have upgrades.. OK that's not very important now the important thing is i'm super stress!!! and my printer ran out of ink i din't print my notes in school on monday and now i've to read like 50 odd pages of stuff on screen and i hate it because it hurts.
yawns i'm very tired =(
weather is cranky today. shine.rain.shine.rain.
alas... i shall go back to pia my work now if not i really don't need to sleep already. HMRPH. wish me luck. i hate presentations. and the thought of having us being videoed sucks.. i think i'll look weird. i'll forget my speech. hope i don't get tripped by the wires.
no meetings on saturday makes me a sad girl. but i've no choice. c'mon.bear with it..6 more weeks!
&loved you so.
18.3.07
what do i really want and like?? guess if i really know.. i won't get any surprises.. so why bother finding out??
i'm old. i can't yearn for a life of a 3 year old kid. like what you see on shows how parents hang up their kid's favourite soft toy in her room and it'll be the 1st thing that surprises her the next morning..
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arrgh. school work is driving me crazy. but yet..is not the school work that gives the work that makes me crazy. ok incoherent i don't know what i'm talking i only know its so tiring to lead a life i wish..
a simple simple life
maybe..its only just the beginning
a box of happiness=priceless.
maybe someone can give me the best birthday present on earth by doing all the exams for me!!
&loved you so.
i swear my whole life i'll never watch a movie in a cinema anymore.
i was so freaked out..and utterly grossed yesterday that i can't stop crying thinking about how disgusting it is........
to have damn lizard died in my pants.. and i've to kill it with my own hands by squashing it to stop it wriggling...
goosebumps. i just can't stop bathing!
&loved you so.
17.3.07
**i wish i could go snorkeling and diving with my special one at Tioman one day **
&loved you so.
16.3.07
a special "present" dedicated to gary's fanssss. (i'm not one of them though..but i happen to found it so yar..here is it..) http://www.wretch.cc/blog/garyblue --> his blog
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14.3.07
i find a translation of the word "baby" in taiwan language.. --> 北鼻 and i just can't stop laughing at it. ok i seriously have nothing better to do to laugh at something that's not so funny afterall.
everyday i'll tell myself ~ "明天会更好" maybe i should learn more on stress management the whole damn life of mine is giving me alot of stress only sleeping helps me relieve the stress its the only time i can stop thinking, hearing, seeing things that upsets me stress me
eating shopping movie/tv relieves can help too but i don't print notes to allow me access to unlimited shopping and EATING at the end of the day..does it really helps?? maybe?or perhaps just temporarily..still..better than nothing at all
movies i want to watch TMNT , 300 , Blood & Chocolate, letter from iwo jima i really love action, war movies chic flicks are good for laughing..but not me romance..maybe?? i like those which make you extremely SAD like *a moment to remember, titantic, blah blah blah.*
yesterday's test was ..... oh well i studied till a freaking 3am for the first time ever in my life and nothing i read came out (i only picked like 50%) to read though.. arrgh. such a failure. i suck.
i really have no motivation to do anything now
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i can't wait for exams to be over. then got to find work..(save up for my laserprinter and laptop..in case i need to get one) and watch tv until i rot. i know my life has always been a bore. since i hardly go out..to town..or to be exact i seldom go further than tampines.. my friends say i'm from a village (pasir ris) and always travelling a long journey to the city (school @ jalan bahar) a mountain tortoise..because other than NTU..my only hangout is in front of my TV. when i myself study alot on modern capitalism.. i wonder..am i really living in a modern or traditional world.. life just revolves around school, home, school, home and no where else.
a very simple me a very simple life but yet..no matter what simplicity i truly seeks.. i always get doubts.
my head is really splitting apart. yet no one can help me.
&loved you so.
www.colorquiz.com
a colour psychology test..quite accurate..hmrph. =)
Existing Situation
The fear of rebuff and the extreme caution of her approach make it difficult for her to achieve the degree of intimacy and identification she desires.
Stress Sources
The tenacity and strength of will necessary to contend with existing difficulties has become weakened. Feels overtaxed, worn out, and getting nowhere, but continues to stand her ground. She feels this adverse situation as an actual tangible pressure which is intolerable to her and from which she wants to escape, but she feels unable to make the necessary decision.
Restrained Characteristics
Feels listless, hemmed in, and anxious; considers that circumstances and forcing her to restrain her desires. Wants to avoid open conflict with others and to have peace and quiet.
Actual Problem
The tensions induced by trying to cope with conditions which are really beyond her capabilities, or reserves of strength, have led to considerable anxiety and a sense of personal (but unadmitted) inadequacy. Anxiously searching for solutions and prone to compulsive inhibitions and compulsive desires.
Actual Problem #2
Anxiety and a restless dissatisfaction, either with circumstances or with unfulfilled emotional requirements, have produced considerable stress.
&loved you so.
11.3.07
a very silly boy on earth.. got stuck in a traffic jam for 1+hour.. due to the IT fair @ suntec.. almost dozed off during the jam.. still insist going raffles city and queue for his piggy gf donuts from donut factory.. to satisfy her crave + de-stress her from the shitty work she's doing.. spend another 2hours queuing there.. before he gets to sniff the donuts.. total time drained = > 3 hours
i can't bear to eat the donuts. but i'm smiling inside my heart.. thanks silly boy=) and i shall forgive you for going soccer without telling you despite my countless warnings that you should not go due to your injured knee. no more next time! **much love**
&loved you so.
overdose of entries today. research alone on the stupid public administration essay kills. my eyes are going to pop out. back is breaking. hand is aching.
always wanted to wear a pair of pretty shoes.. but my stupid big feet wear even sandals also can have blisters..and hurts like hell..-_- so i just going to stick with birkies and slippers..slip ons... but..i found this pretty shoe site.. think my friends will adore this site..so here I'm sharing with you people! http://www.queend.com/ and below is their collection (slide show)
&loved you so.
Amei- 記得 Ji De
Coco- Before I fall in love
&loved you so.
Winter Love, i like her vocal over here
Everylasting, FF8 theme, my favourite
&loved you so.
9.3.07
was feeling so bored in the morning.. and i chance upon a very very fun website!!! FACE RECOGNITION (CLICK HERE) the site will match your picture with celebrities look-alike! and you try dozens of different photos.. and you pick out the celebrities that occur at the highest frequency!! OKAY its very DUH. but it keeps me entertained the whole morning.. it flatters you alot because they forever matches you with very gorgeous superstars.HAHA. and no matter what picture of mine i uploaded..i notice a trend. or rather..conclusion drawn... 1)i look very asian. (only 1 out of 10 celebrities is an angmoh) 2)i don't look singaporean. (more than 50% of the matched celebrities are korean/jap) many people have doubts about my nationality since young, at school at work outside.. many times been approached by korean/jap/taiwanese/hongkonger auntie/uncle asking for directions so and so..now i understand why.. 3)i tried many pictures, and the highest frequency stars happen to be...... --note: they have numerous pictures of each celebrity..so maybe different angle of you matches a different picture each time.
(these 2 have the highest percentage of resemblance in every picture..Hmrph..) eyes especially! asian slitty eyes.hah.
Lee Hyori
Zhang Ziyi
(and the following also matches every picture..)
Matsu Takako (i think eileen fu looks like her!! serious)
Kyoko Fukada (huh like how is that possible?? definitely real life me don't even look so sweet like her)
Fann Wong (definitely my high cheekbones..that only one out of a million people has it. lol)
Song Hye Kyo (way off la..she's too pretty!)
Maggie Cheung (people have said that before..)
but still i don't see any resemblance. my face is a piece of shit now.in my 20 years of life i've never had such bad breakouts. rather not pimples..but..is bad complexion..those resulted from stress..multiple mini bumps all over my face..its so demoralizing and hurtful to see yourself into the mirror everyday..*sigh*
rather than i look like them (HOW I WISH) i think all these girls look alike each other. hahaaha. but well..as i've said.. entertainment purposes!!! and i tried playing with my parents, boy, friends pictures...damn funny!
example.. June..look like those westerners! Adriana Karembeu --97% somemore! and she's hot la. my boy..Takenouchi Yutaka!!! the one in Beachboys.. =) and as i've said eileen fu looks like matsu takako!
pardon me. i'm bored. i really hate studying. sigh. and my back hurts. i'm having an awful time.. sigh..
&loved you so.
7.3.07
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important assignments up the following weeks. crucial MARCH. and after that..will be exams. shrugs. resolution to maintain G.P.A or get higher is not working. this semester sucks. tough and taxing. oh well............. next semester i'll work hard. this semester..SIGH. no hope already.
&loved you so.
2.3.07
*pats back*jess u did great for A's ok!? just use this time to think about what course you want to take..that's more important than brooding over those grades =)
time flies. its already march.. less than 2 months to my birthday. which is also the start of my exams..how nice?? guess the following 4 years I'll never get to celebrate or even enjoy a happy birthday. just study..study..study..
the dentist i used to go to has moved to AMK! I've no choice but to just haphazardly go to the next nearest one. it suck.really. he stretched my mouth as if there are gold inside 'em.. pull 'em so wide and hard. scale my teeth as if he's scrubbing the concrete floor. Throw those instruments into my mouth as if I'm the rubbish bin. #@$#$^$#^! i swear I'll not go back anymore. i rather travel to AMK.
saving hard now..saving is important! eating more often at home.. not gone to the salon for treatment for more than half a year..which save me hundreds..though my hair is like hay now.. very tempted to get a black mac..but after upgrading the ram and all..solid 3k.. sigh.just got to be thrifty. my computer is in tip top condition..just that sometimes it hangs..and internet connection crawls..but its fine. yup. unless it has gone cranky... if not I'll leave my black mac alone..at the furthest end of my wishlist =)
the only thing i want to get now is a pair of havannas..(the new collection is pretty!!! hope to see visit them soon)
and happiness..
p/s: rain is not a weather of your choice..coldness is not for you..please take care of yourself!
&loved you so.
as said in my previous post.. i've decided not to go to her blog anymore. she's already happy settling down in the States.. like what culture has those people there taught her.. is not my business anymore.. my friend's friend is one great example of "overseas study" how i wish you won't be like her.. there's nothing i can do. all i can say is you will always be the sweet girl i know whom we spend most of our meals during nyjc days together.
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