ntu soci 3rd year x))
17th april 1987
5'7 tall
I don't tolerate incongruity
Music, Dancefloor makes me come alive
A world of self denial i live
embodiment of ice
YDesires.
canon ixus 970is or
fujifilm f100d
clothes
maintain GPA of 4.0 above
happiness
pretty skin
i had this utterly sinister look when i was on my way home. or rather..murderous.
sometimes its not on purpose we want to discriminate them. tell me why its always them doing those irritable acts in public. tell me why its always them who behave like ditzy lala babarians in public. i try to look things in an unbiased way. but in the end..i still come to the same conclusion. tell me about it!
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i'm abnormal. i think i lack some laughing genes. i can't fathom why they can laugh practically over everything.
when its SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO................ not funny.
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i'm not trying to be raucous. but i just want to state a fact that i can't stand people giving attitude to others when they aren't feeling good about something. especially over results. its okay to feel sad/disapointed. no one will blame you! instead people will be there willing to share your problems or hear you out. but if you think the world owes you for your grades.. no one will probably bother about you.
not like when things were to be another way round.. these people will be discerned enough to like even FEEL your existence. they just rave non stop about their so called stupid mistakes..they could have done better..what lousy grades they have..not realising you'r just THERE.
its just human nature you see. when u fail.u hope for a pass. when u pass.u hope for better marks. humans are never contented with what they have.
i'm not trying to be mean. (that's the kind of mark we usually get isn't it..?? admit it..you're just feeling unbalanced because other people did much better..like how humans always give the -_- face to the top scorer..reason is simple..our inner self is jealous) i'm not being un-concerning. maybe i'm sick and tired of this.. you aren't discerning about my feelings. then why should I lower myself to face that kind of attiude you give.. isn't that "zi tao ku chi"??
i'm not specifically saying anyone here. perhaps a certain part of it is. but mostly i'm just elaborating on the point..creating my own scenario. but its not entirely untrue isn't it? we see such people everywhere..even next time when we go to work..
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something to be happy about.. my morning is a pleasant one with him :) mac breakfast at bedok central.. to think he even come my place as early as 615am to wait for me :) yummy yummy. sometimes you just can't deny the fact that even a plain bowl of porridge tastes so awefully NICE with someone you love around. like how much i hate to eat noodles.. he once cooked instant noodles for me..with just an egg in it.. i can finished it in 5 mins. heaven!
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i realy don't know what i should do. at times during math lesson i'll be thinking.. omg..its just holy shit the lecturer is blabbering about.. seems like i know everything.. i did all my work in advance.. sitting there daydreaming..dazing for the second hand to move. YET.. my math is giving me those horrendous grades of my life. F F F F F my exams scripts are always in a mess. why is god playing such trick to me?
sparklethots
