ntu soci 3rd year x))
17th april 1987
5'7 tall
I don't tolerate incongruity
Music, Dancefloor makes me come alive
A world of self denial i live
embodiment of ice
YDesires.
canon ixus 970is or
fujifilm f100d
clothes
maintain GPA of 4.0 above
happiness
pretty skin
yes jct's over. felf as if i juz had a mass diarrhoea. i had geog.math.gp.chi. but seriously after much thot.. i haf no confidence of passing anione of dem. maybe chi?? but its still too earli to say..but yar..juz hope wad i've written was sensible.. e others..i dun haf much hope upon dem.. i noe too well wad kinda marks i'll get.. sometimes i juz hate myself so much.. not tt i nv spend time studying.. in fact i sometimes felt so unbalanced tt another person hu doesn't put in as much effort as i do cud get a C at least easily.. i was nv liddat b4! so wad cud haf happen.. i dunno.i realli dun. mind u..nv once in my life i'm struggling in a sch whr i'm e bottom 10% of e whole cohort.. u maybe say..y sad? u'r alr in a jc! which means u're like top 20-40% in spore! but well..jc so wad? poly students can earn more den us if dey wan to. suddenly i feel sucha disgrace.. if i din study n i juz stare blank at e paper.. its my fault. but y m i staring straight at e paper.. cud feel it even penetrating so deep into e papers.. yet nth comes outta my head? a complete blankout. n its juz not one qns. its e entire paper.. -sigh- i nv had such phobia for exams. i dun even rmb panicking during ani of my papers b4 jc days.. so wad is e prob.. i dunno.. n its v tortorous to lead such a life.. sigh. all i keep telling myself is.. study harder!! do well next time!! but i've had too much "next time"... nth but more disappointment to come..
sparklethots
