ntu soci 3rd year x))
17th april 1987
5'7 tall
I don't tolerate incongruity
Music, Dancefloor makes me come alive
A world of self denial i live
embodiment of ice
YDesires.
canon ixus 970is or
fujifilm f100d
clothes
maintain GPA of 4.0 above
happiness
pretty skin
nobody said it was easy.. but nobody said it was dis hard.. y m i back to e start?
i'm freezing cold. frozen by a dozen of factors i dun dare to specify. things r getting a lil' blur myself. whr shud i go to? n sadly..if one day e ice defrost.. e flood probably came..
everithing i've been doing.. has consistently drawn me into a much more tired pace.. i'm indeed tired of running walking thinking n a whole lot of other things.. i'm draining out.. possibly leaking out..slowly..but surely.. it seems tt my ability of coping with stress is decreasing drastically.. everithing's almost nearly outta my ctrl.. or has it alr been tt way?
i'm beginning to feel awkward.. but i still duno how can i b so non-chalent and brave in front of others.. but i can't do tt in front of i me myself?? i swear i stayed in the toilet for 50mins plus. part of it bathing..part of it stoning? dunno if i cried.gess i did.not sure.coz i'm under e strong gush of showerrr splattering so hard on my head n i prob forget tt i'm in there for so long.
n i rmb i spent 10 bucks at e malay western food stall buying 8 chicken wings n 1 packet of fries. tt was my lunch. prob tea?since its alr 330. was tinking y din i die of blood clotting or sudden heart attack. maybe..8 wasn't enuff to achieve tt.
HOLYSHIT. i juz can't stand e sight of B. yes hello u din score a single digit. issit necessary to cover ur marks so tightly? damn u.no one wud b interested lar. mite as well hide in one corner n seal up ur entire paper. e fan wun blow ur papers n u wun need to frantically PLUS desperately struggle to cover ur marks. all i noe u get something with a 6_ shun u b proud of ur great achievement. actualli u fail of top e class has nth to do with me. absolutely NTH. but stop ur whiny shit for goodness sake! u'r irritating e hell outta me! i juz haf 101 things to list down bout B's characteristics. not tt i luv her so much. usually i cudn't care less bout ppl hu has nth to do w me. so u shud noe how irritating dis person is. n since e job of dentist is taken up. i wana b e seamstress. sew up e big fat mouth. yes i'm mean. hu cares aniway? i'm not feeling right either.
i noe chances of meeting the P is now cfm+chop 95%. unless.miracles do occur. not a sudden "ting!" tt i can use a magic wand n alter my marks.. but e criteria to meet her. but well. i'm getting fearless. issit a gd or bad thing. hah. e same old things they will yadayada away.. n all u do is sit there listen n nod ur head. letting dem telling u "u ain working hard enuff..u needa conc more..." like hello lar. even e kopitiam ah soh knows how to tell me tt. go ahead n equate fail with lazy. go go go. u win.
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