ntu soci 3rd year x))
17th april 1987
5'7 tall
I don't tolerate incongruity
Music, Dancefloor makes me come alive
A world of self denial i live
embodiment of ice
YDesires.
canon ixus 970is or
fujifilm f100d
clothes
maintain GPA of 4.0 above
happiness
pretty skin
how would you feel if your entire world crumbles down? how would you feel if the ones you trusted most turn their back against you?
i feel terrible enough and that my handphone also decides to fall into a great sleep and leave me alone it is barely 5 months old and it is now recuperating @ the sony ericssons service centre
i really regret not waiting a while more to get a samsung phone
&loved you so.
i hate flu bugs! they irk clean freaks off! arrgh!
isetan sale @ scotts was great~~~ not for the clothes, etc... but i was hogging @ the kitchen ware department with my mum for like 5 hours or so! my stupid bag snapped! lucky i realized it if not my wallet and everything will be gone!! that's also the reason why i will spend alot on bags...they assure you quality wanted to go down to level 1 to grab a bag..but it was terrible because both of us are carrying 2 big claypots (my choice because they cook you dozen times better quality food than metal pots/pans)... and alot of accessories...there's no way we could squeeze through the crowd and queue just for a bag anymore!
its friday already and recess week is coming to an end! its time for work check : 401 Assignment 2 - not started 301 Assignment - not started 301 week 1 to 7 primary and general readings for term quiz - not started (its like about 3-4 inch thick...and obviously not readable like any books you grab from the shelves) 301 past weeks readings - not started
why must our recess week have more workload than normal school term! i need a rest terribly
&loved you so.
19.9.08
firstly HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO KW!! :):) 8 years of best-est friendship going on! (i'm 2 days late in posting this though :X)
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i still have not watched /boys over flowers\ *beep* has successfully pissed more and more people off with her no-brainer remarks as usual, giving that kind of damn tone as if i owe her my previous life 1)with regards to not asking her to sharing jen's present (you didn't bother to ask about it, seeing everyone's chipping in you want to be a free-rider. but hello does it even make sense that we have already gave her the present you want ME to go tell her you have a share too? no way) 2)and not going bbq (ya it's my bloody fault that i'm not interested to go, i've no need to even account for what i want to do to you isn't it?)
*beep* calls j just 1 hour before an early morning lecture to command j to find a spectacles shop and buy a screwdriver for her (hello smartie, you first time been to singapore that you don't know what are the operating hours like?) and then half an hour later you sms and said you don't need it already (what if people already buy for you?!)
*beep* shouted at R for asking a stupid question right in front of everyone, including prof (like how stupid it is to have the courtesy to close the door of your prof's room?? not everyone is so rude and mindless like you)
why am i always surrounded with rude, self-centered and insensitive people all the time? get a life you are not perfect to begin with to criticize on others, hurt other people's feelings with your freaking rude remarks i think even they dressed better than you, i've no qualms over this claim i'm making
i'm very angsty partly because its 1.51am and i'm barely half through my literature review... 5 and a half more hours to leaving my house for school (equates to zero sleeping time)
i blew away almost one week's allowance in spreeing @ JP john little all for the sake of dear he ought to be thankful i've braved whatever pai-seh-ness in carrying them around
and at time same time..preparing a little surprise too.......
&loved you so.
14.9.08
i want to reminisce the days i'll peg myself to my sofa watching meteor garden for more than a dozen times reminisce the feeling of fantasizing myself as the female lead in the show by watching /boys over flowers\
i reach home like around evening by the time i've bathed/eat its always after 8 and i'm not a nocturnal animal, i'm not productive at all in the night there's no way i can do a decent work i've only weekends but i need to breathe as well! arrgh i'm so sick and tired
i must make sure i don't have such a shitty timetable next semester
&loved you so.
someone started her research like 3 weeks ago? now complaining she didn't find anything and wants to "gup" what people had found when this person is definitely not so stupid because NO ONE will spend 3 weeks finding nothing and yet still stick to the same topic
someone after digging her hair and biting her nails offer me food again
someone brings her lunchbox every wednesday and comes up with 101 reasons to tell everyone they MUST bring lunchbox TOO
someone as usual comes up with 101 reasons to FORCE ME to go s-bbq which i don't want to go because 1)its so freaking far 2)its so freaking late 3)i'm freaking not interested and start ordering me options i can do 1)get my bf to drive me home (like he must listen to you) 2)order my dad to come all the way to school just to send me home and SHUN BIAN give her a lift as well (like my father DON'T NEED TO WORK)
someone again comes up with 101 reasons that i MUST go shopping with blahblahblah during my recess week because you tell me to.
when you act like a diva and criticize other people's dressing/appearance/... i kept quiet when you were selfish enough to make everyone go your house last semester to "revise stats" (in actual fact you want to ask questions from all of us - and we all know that's why no one turned up) i kept quiet when you were so self-centered/selfish and insisted your views and care shit about others i kept quiet, when you started to tell me what i should do during my free time, order me that i must go out with you during all my free time, telling me who and who i should not meet, blahblahblah i kept quiet when you went overboard and insulted my parents saying i should rebel against them and breakfree from my prison, because they are infringing on my rights as an adult to go out (in actual fact is i used them as an excuse not to go out with you, but that also don't give you the right to criticize them) i kept quiet
i didn't do anything back to you but i kept my distance from you since holidays and i know you sensed it i kept my distance even when school reopens but if you smile at me or ask me anything i still reply you i don't hate you i just want to keep our status as normal school mates so that you don't cross the line but guess whenever i tried to be nice to start replying you and continue a proper conversation, you cross this line again and again ARRRRRRRRRGH what should i do! for goodness sake i don't throw temper at anyone in their face all i want is to maintain an acquaintance r/s why is it so hard why must you bring the devil out of me i hate it
&loved you so.
10.9.08
we're all familiar with McDonaldization of society and McDonalds is part and parcel of everyone's life
but from now on i'm going to BOYCOTT MCDONALDS! luckily i didn't ate McDonalds for this month!! and i'll never again.
PLEASE READ THE FOLLOWING TWO ARTICLES its true by the way.
1/6 of my day will be spent on public transport since i'm studying @ pulau ntu this is also the time you get to observe many many things others don't how people talk how people sit how people sleep how people rush to chop seats with many kind of "patterns" and many times you get pissed with more than 5 students standing in the middle of the train and treating it as speakers' corner, yelling @ the top of their lungs today i accidentally overheard a couple's conversation over the phone with their friend (it was damn loud 3 cabins away could hear them even!) their friend was supposedly suicidal? self-inflict injury on herself? sniffing "something"? blahblahblah.... they are trying to console her, but...what it sounded to me was they are being quite anal. because i could count more than 20 f*** words in a minute.
i can't wait for recess week to come! other than not having to attend lectures/tutorials...i get to save 4X5=20hours of travelling time! i get to catch up on my super duper overdue readings i get to sleep at my usual bedtime hours (i hope?)
2 besties' birthday is coming next week too!
and i miss my darling alot :( he calls me a "书呆子" because i forever can't meet him due to endless work...heh (^-^)
&loved you so.
3.9.08
i wish holidays can come faster i wish professors can give lesser workload i wish i can get good grades this semester i wish *beep* can stop bossing people around and irritate people with silly questions i wish *beep* can wash her hands before touching me or my food i wish everyone around me can be happy i wish i can have time to meet my friends i wish my parents can be happy everyday i wish i can see dear more often i wish i can tour the world with dear i wish i can be with you forever
xoxo good night xoxo
&loved you so.
27.8.08
call it PMS
if you want to borrow my lecture notes. SAY SO don't pretend you just want to look @ one sentence and you copied every single word i wrote from page 1 onwards and could you please don't scratch your hair+bite your nails then start handling my notes, touching me, offering me food with your hands? and its quite rude when i said i don't want it and you just dump it into my bowl do you get the idea i don't want food from you because you don't even wash your hands AT ALL
you're forever asking people around you if you can use their utensils and you have the cheek to ask me you don't understand why me and jen don't share food/drinks with people (you mean yourself perhaps) because you've no idea how your scratching scalp/sniffing hair/biting nails/sucking fingers/not washing hands disgust both of us
and yes i really hate it when you don't want to pay attention in class and you start borrowing people's notes then you start criticizing how people's handwriting is horrible (not like you write so beautifully?! and the fact is you're asking a favour from people!) then you start copying EVERY SINGLE ALPHABET I WROTE when you only ask for one sentence okay call me biased because if its anyone else i won't react so badly
i really am trying very hard to contain my displeasure towards you really BUT why must you criticize other people every single day? do you know its so rude and unkind to comment how disgusting people look/dress?? you are not pretty to start with, and you definitely dress worse than all the people you criticized! i really have a problem with girls who likes to scold vulgarities like no one's business and worst of all...CRITICIZE people when you are not perfect
&loved you so.
25.8.08
recently there's always a hacker to my personal blog a sweet lovable one though
&loved you so.
nothing is fair nothing is equal nothing is forever
But my LOVE for u last for infinity LIFETIMES!
&loved you so.
20.8.08
*deaR meant everything to me. So impt and lovable :)
&loved you so.
18.8.08
baby made his super duper expensive specs and i can't stop nagging at him. ahhaz like more than half a thousand for a prada specs.... like *hmrph* nonetheless...i like his new look! plus he just cut his hair, so he looks really different!! me like! :D awww. and he fetch me home after school and bought me chocolate eclairs and rojak!! so so sweet of him... especially when there's this big downpour... i'm damn tired from school, and his sweet gesture brightens me up! BUT i still fell asleep at the 2nd half of the national day rally... shrugs.
and "singapore" got 2nd for table-tennis...nothing new... since china is obviously damn strong in this perhaps its in their genes? that's why our 3 reps got 2nd too? but i don't deny it was an exiciting match... especially watching guo yue and zhang yining's play
i'm so sick of school i wish there can be an immediate one week holiday right now why are there endless work to do!? tell me.
&loved you so.
12.8.08
when everyone's still enjoying i've readings piling up assignments to stress over
&loved you so.
4.8.08
forget to mention, i managed to catch Edison Chen's 5sec-no-speech-caleifei-role in /the dark knight\ even dear missed it! haha
&loved you so.
3.8.08
/the dark knight\ is the blockbuster of 2008 everyone should watch i was skeptical to support batman initially, because since young, batman was the least-favorite movie now i understand why i didn't like it because it was too complex, too dark... for a kid to fathom what the show really is portraying
it is quite hard to not focus on Heath Ledger without being reminded that this is his last movie, last performance i guess without /the dark knight\, not much people will realize his death because many people knew about it not during January, but recently
Christian Bale is indeed charming, which suits his playboy tycoon role well i guess? but the Joker stole the limelight afterall
Ledger brought depth to Joker's derangement (his sinister laughter, his frequent licks of his scarred face the whole world sees the Joker as a psychopath, or even a evil do-er i beg to differ because he is the only person who makes sense out of each and every word he says He brought in Durkheim's idea of Anomie...
he had this ongoing social experiment, trying to reveal human's dark side... (which reminds me of the prisoner dilemma theory, especially the part where the people on the respective 2 ships are to make their decision whether to bomb the other) he said many meaningful philosophies, which bring forceful thrust to your thoughts one of which was... "I HATE plans...... Schemers are trying to control their own little worlds. I am not a schemer. I show schemers how pathetic they are in their attempts to control things that are what they are..." "Nobody panics when things go according to plan, even if the plans are horrifying." (blahblahblah... i can't remember already but that's the gist larh) i think the Joker merely plays with humans' fear, he really did not lay out detail steps as in what to do, who to kill, blah blah blah...
and i do admire this character because no one can threaten him with anything he has nothing to lose, nothing to fear and there's nothing you can do to him not even death can make him a wimp
how brilliant don't you think this movie is a true reflection of the real world? its all about moral crisis... human schizophrenia... the double-faced us (just like the hideous-looking Harvey Dent in the second part of the show) and the coin Harvey Dent was holding throughout the show........ ponder us to think- is there really fairness in life? what do chances mean?? are they always 50-50??
dear's exam coming next thursday! so recently i've been helping him do his lab report?!?!?!? which sounds totally alien to me.. he's feeling v v v v stress lately *hugs* no matter what, i'm always behind him :) he said he feel we're like "lao fu lao qi", don't need those sweet talks like those honeymooning-couples....oh well..i know its just an excuse to cover up for his lack of romance!! haha...but i still love him for who he is :)
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